5 Days Till I Go Back To Hell

[darklover14]

I don't know if I should be happy or sad that I'm going back to JC. I guess I'm sad/happy. I'm sad cause I'm gonna miss all you guys but I'm happy cause I can get away from all the drama. Have you ever been in a situation where you have to keep pretending something for just a little bit longer so you can make something happen? Well that's what I'm doing right now and Carol don't even assume you know what I'm talking about because I know whar you're gonna think I'm talking about and you're wrong. *sigh* I almost wish I hadn't come home. I almost wish I could've just stayed in Job Corps and wrote you all Christmas cards instead. Fuck at this point I don't even wanna have a New Years' Party. The one thing I was looking forward to isn't gonna happen and once again everybody gonna have someone but me. Yeah yeah I know 'boo woo who cares?' Well I care!!! I'm sick of everything getting fucked up and blown WAY outta perportion!!! I just wanna be happy and I just want to spend my last 5 fucking days here with my girl without her getting mad at me for some stupidass bullshit!!! *slams head repeatedly against the desk* WHY *slam* WON'T *slam* THINGS *slam* JUST *slam* WORK *slam* OUT *slam* RIGHT?!?! *sigh* I'm quite done now so I love you all and I'll see you at the New Years Party. Here's times and the list again, remember anyone who's not on this list costs $5 NO EXCEPTIONS:

ALEXA
JULIE
AUBREY
NICK
CAROL
AMBER
BEN
JESSICA
KERRI

Anyone and everyone else costs $5. I love you guys and I'll catch ya laters!!!

~Sam

"I know what has to be to done and I even understand why it has to be done but that doesn't make it any easier to do it..."