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yo. anyone have a spare lj code lying around? i'd really like a new journal. if you give me your code, i'll give you the code i get back.
so, i killed a part of myself tonight and it didn't hurt half as much as i thought it would. it's amazing how living for yourself suddenly makes things easier. like letting some peice of trash go.
my soul feels lighter. it was nice knowing i didn't NEED him, and it's even nicer knowing i don't want him. so long, buddy.
anyways, the sudden realization that i've been played a fool for the last two years wasn't nearly as hurtful as i thought it would be. i read that tidbit of news and took it with a grain of salt. come to think of it, i don't think i ever really believed he would leave her. come to think of it, i don't think i ever really believed i was the only one. or shit for that matter, that we were the only two. i'm fairly certian in the begining me and that other girl i refused to believe was true overlapped....
yeah. it's not that i'm a bad person, it's not that i'm not worthy of love, it's that i FUCKING ATTRACT ASSHOLES.
*cough*
right. that said.
VEGAS! yes. EXACTLY one week and i'll be there. i leave here tuesday. i'm stoked about seeing scarlette, even more stoked about my bus ride down the california coast, and MORE MORE stoked about seeing my mom and mike once i get to vegas. good times ahead, definately some good times ahead.
and i'm leaving all that bullshit dead and buried in alaska. where i should have left it to begin with.
also: welcome home lydia! i'll try to call you this weekend. hope mexico was beautiful.
so, i killed a part of myself tonight and it didn't hurt half as much as i thought it would. it's amazing how living for yourself suddenly makes things easier. like letting some peice of trash go.
my soul feels lighter. it was nice knowing i didn't NEED him, and it's even nicer knowing i don't want him. so long, buddy.
anyways, the sudden realization that i've been played a fool for the last two years wasn't nearly as hurtful as i thought it would be. i read that tidbit of news and took it with a grain of salt. come to think of it, i don't think i ever really believed he would leave her. come to think of it, i don't think i ever really believed i was the only one. or shit for that matter, that we were the only two. i'm fairly certian in the begining me and that other girl i refused to believe was true overlapped....
yeah. it's not that i'm a bad person, it's not that i'm not worthy of love, it's that i FUCKING ATTRACT ASSHOLES.
*cough*
right. that said.
VEGAS! yes. EXACTLY one week and i'll be there. i leave here tuesday. i'm stoked about seeing scarlette, even more stoked about my bus ride down the california coast, and MORE MORE stoked about seeing my mom and mike once i get to vegas. good times ahead, definately some good times ahead.
and i'm leaving all that bullshit dead and buried in alaska. where i should have left it to begin with.
also: welcome home lydia! i'll try to call you this weekend. hope mexico was beautiful.