Oh My... look at the time!
This place still still exists!
So, lots of life changes. Gainfully employed (with immanent unemployment looming, of course). Ditched school, for which I am too cool. (And not wealthy enough, apparently). Moved to a nicer part of hell. I really kind've like it here. It is in a nice little latitude that tends to spawn tornadoes and brooding, energetic thunderstorms. *smiles* The best. I rediscovered something I've known since I was a tiny child... and that is what I --work interrupted this sentence, (how rude!)--should be doing with my life. And a hint... it isn't what I've been chasing with school, career choices, etc.. Soooo... now that all that wondering about is settled, it is a matter of pursuing that which is unpursuable. Over the years I've acquired a large sum of debt due to many factors and student loans is no small part of that. The career I want to get into is usually said to be close to impossible to make much money at, even without such a debt burden. *ponders* But the 'leap of faith' has been a recurring concept for me for a while. Either way, I've mostly been treading water and looking at the situation. I figure it would be best to try and cull as much debt as I can (hopefully down to my student loans) and then dive in. But who knows. More and more I'm learning to notice and ride the currents wherever they may flow.
There is an exciting feeling however... as if this change is somewhat immanent. (But with me, time tends to be elastic so what does that mean?)
There is a poem by Rumi that says:
"Let the beauty you love
Be what you do."
I think that sums things up nicely. Why waste my life slaving towards some nebulous nothingness in corporate wastelands? There is money to be had, sure, but at least for me it would be at the cost of a well-lived life. I'd be better as a poor person doing what I loved. Who knows though... maybe I can have my cake and eat it too. ;)
So, lots of life changes. Gainfully employed (with immanent unemployment looming, of course). Ditched school, for which I am too cool. (And not wealthy enough, apparently). Moved to a nicer part of hell. I really kind've like it here. It is in a nice little latitude that tends to spawn tornadoes and brooding, energetic thunderstorms. *smiles* The best. I rediscovered something I've known since I was a tiny child... and that is what I --work interrupted this sentence, (how rude!)--should be doing with my life. And a hint... it isn't what I've been chasing with school, career choices, etc.. Soooo... now that all that wondering about is settled, it is a matter of pursuing that which is unpursuable. Over the years I've acquired a large sum of debt due to many factors and student loans is no small part of that. The career I want to get into is usually said to be close to impossible to make much money at, even without such a debt burden. *ponders* But the 'leap of faith' has been a recurring concept for me for a while. Either way, I've mostly been treading water and looking at the situation. I figure it would be best to try and cull as much debt as I can (hopefully down to my student loans) and then dive in. But who knows. More and more I'm learning to notice and ride the currents wherever they may flow.
There is an exciting feeling however... as if this change is somewhat immanent. (But with me, time tends to be elastic so what does that mean?)
There is a poem by Rumi that says:
"Let the beauty you love
Be what you do."
I think that sums things up nicely. Why waste my life slaving towards some nebulous nothingness in corporate wastelands? There is money to be had, sure, but at least for me it would be at the cost of a well-lived life. I'd be better as a poor person doing what I loved. Who knows though... maybe I can have my cake and eat it too. ;)