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Mmmmmm. I didn't have classes today because it was a special day at our school, by which it means that the freshmen and sophomores and juniors are all in these assemblies and some seniors are too but my teachers all were like 'just...go to the auditorium,' and so of course none of us went.
That math test that I previously said was BAAAAAAD? I got a perfect score. And this time I actually did get a perfect score instead of my teacher just thinking that I got a perfect score because someone (don't need to mention names, do I?) changed the grades in his spreadsheet.
Why I love Jesspah:
Jess: I would have done as well as you on the test but, see, half the problems utilized the concept of implicit differentiation and I forgot how to do that.
Me: You forgot how to implicitly differentiate? Didn't we learn that in tenth grade or something?
Jess: You know, when I say 'implicit differentiation,' it sounds like something from hell. When you say it, it sounds downright erotic.
I should really write coherently in this. Because I don't write coherently, and so when I come back to look at this in a few months I'm going to be like "what is up with that?"
I like quoting from my friends. They say more interesting things than I do. In reality, I am not really that interesting. I also don't use words as well as Ammie, who has that gift for coming out with absolutely beautiful statements. Neither Ammie nor Ben ever update their livejournals any more. That really disappoints me.
I have Things Due. Tomorrow is my research paper for A.P. Poly-sci and a problem set for math. Friday is my English essay on Heart of Darkness. , and to choose an independent reading book. I may just do Mrs. Dalloway by Virginia Woolf because my teacher thinks I should. Monday is my Modelling Project of The Approaching Ecological Doom for Research, and Tuesday is a problem set for Physics. Wednesday is my Society Paper called The Confluence of Psychology and Economics: The Great Depression and the Dot-Com Crash, and a Physics test. Thursday is the Art Exhibit, and I have to submit something for that. Should I use my self-portrait, or my bleak depressing Highway on a Rainy Night. I am not sure. This will need to be decided.
Today is the eighth. That means next Wednesday is the fifteenth. Which means I have three weeks to finish my college applications, and, you know, decide where I want to go to school. Or if I want to go to school. I am not quite sure that I do.
Today in Poly-sci/gov whatever-we-call-it we had a very fun class about morality and politics, except I just drew pictures of people in the class.
I think I will stop writing now. I am going to go lie on my bedroom floor and listen to music.
DO YOU
act like someone you're not?: Yes. It's called "not showing people that I'm a mess."
pretend like you're like someone in order to "fit in": mmm, maybe.
jump to conclusions?: sometimes.
categorize people based on looks or clothing?: sometimes
make fun of people to make yourself feel better?: probably not
HAVE YOU
ever lied to a friend about something you've done?: yes
lied about being a virgin?: yes
lied about drug use?: yes
lied about alcohol consumption?: yes
ever stolen something from a friend?: mmmm...if I have I don't remember. Maybe, a juicebox
ever stolen from a parent?: Borrowed.
DO YOU
put on a front to try to protect yourself?: Of course
wish you were somebody else?: Yeah, sometimes
make an honest attempt to be a good individual?: I think so
ARE YOU
in denial about something?: I don't know. Am I?
ashamed of who you are?: A little
afraid of what the future has to bring?: Who isn't?
wondering if your friends are really there for you?: Never.
wishing you could turn back the clock?: Of course
unhappy with the person you are?: Not really
DO OTHER PEOPLE...
have a misconception as to who your are?: Most likely
make fun of you for being different?: Not that I know of
treat you like you don't have feelings?: No
talk down to you?: Yes
forget about you a lot?: Some
YOUR FRIENDS
do they listen to you and give you advice?: yes
do they come to you for help?: yes
are they always there when you need them? yes
will they keep a secret you tell them?: yes
has a friend ever talked bad about you behind your back?: it's called middle school
HAVE YOU
ever been abandoned by anyone?: yes
if so, are you afraid of people leaving you now?: perhaps
ever talked about a friend behind their back?: see above
FINAL QUESTIONS
have you ever been to therapy of any kind?: hell yes
do you think you need it?: of course
do you think you have issues to overcome?: yes
what is one thing you would erase from your past?: trying certain things
what is one thing you would change about yourself?: stabilize my neurochemistry
who is one person you are having a conflict with right now?: Benjy
what would you say to them if you talked to them?: Same shit I always say
if you've ever lied, why did you do it?: who knows
do you feel like your friends accept you? yes
That math test that I previously said was BAAAAAAD? I got a perfect score. And this time I actually did get a perfect score instead of my teacher just thinking that I got a perfect score because someone (don't need to mention names, do I?) changed the grades in his spreadsheet.
Why I love Jesspah:
Jess: I would have done as well as you on the test but, see, half the problems utilized the concept of implicit differentiation and I forgot how to do that.
Me: You forgot how to implicitly differentiate? Didn't we learn that in tenth grade or something?
Jess: You know, when I say 'implicit differentiation,' it sounds like something from hell. When you say it, it sounds downright erotic.
I should really write coherently in this. Because I don't write coherently, and so when I come back to look at this in a few months I'm going to be like "what is up with that?"
I like quoting from my friends. They say more interesting things than I do. In reality, I am not really that interesting. I also don't use words as well as Ammie, who has that gift for coming out with absolutely beautiful statements. Neither Ammie nor Ben ever update their livejournals any more. That really disappoints me.
I have Things Due. Tomorrow is my research paper for A.P. Poly-sci and a problem set for math. Friday is my English essay on Heart of Darkness. , and to choose an independent reading book. I may just do Mrs. Dalloway by Virginia Woolf because my teacher thinks I should. Monday is my Modelling Project of The Approaching Ecological Doom for Research, and Tuesday is a problem set for Physics. Wednesday is my Society Paper called The Confluence of Psychology and Economics: The Great Depression and the Dot-Com Crash, and a Physics test. Thursday is the Art Exhibit, and I have to submit something for that. Should I use my self-portrait, or my bleak depressing Highway on a Rainy Night. I am not sure. This will need to be decided.
Today is the eighth. That means next Wednesday is the fifteenth. Which means I have three weeks to finish my college applications, and, you know, decide where I want to go to school. Or if I want to go to school. I am not quite sure that I do.
Today in Poly-sci/gov whatever-we-call-it we had a very fun class about morality and politics, except I just drew pictures of people in the class.
I think I will stop writing now. I am going to go lie on my bedroom floor and listen to music.
DO YOU
act like someone you're not?: Yes. It's called "not showing people that I'm a mess."
pretend like you're like someone in order to "fit in": mmm, maybe.
jump to conclusions?: sometimes.
categorize people based on looks or clothing?: sometimes
make fun of people to make yourself feel better?: probably not
HAVE YOU
ever lied to a friend about something you've done?: yes
lied about being a virgin?: yes
lied about drug use?: yes
lied about alcohol consumption?: yes
ever stolen something from a friend?: mmmm...if I have I don't remember. Maybe, a juicebox
ever stolen from a parent?: Borrowed.
DO YOU
put on a front to try to protect yourself?: Of course
wish you were somebody else?: Yeah, sometimes
make an honest attempt to be a good individual?: I think so
ARE YOU
in denial about something?: I don't know. Am I?
ashamed of who you are?: A little
afraid of what the future has to bring?: Who isn't?
wondering if your friends are really there for you?: Never.
wishing you could turn back the clock?: Of course
unhappy with the person you are?: Not really
DO OTHER PEOPLE...
have a misconception as to who your are?: Most likely
make fun of you for being different?: Not that I know of
treat you like you don't have feelings?: No
talk down to you?: Yes
forget about you a lot?: Some
YOUR FRIENDS
do they listen to you and give you advice?: yes
do they come to you for help?: yes
are they always there when you need them? yes
will they keep a secret you tell them?: yes
has a friend ever talked bad about you behind your back?: it's called middle school
HAVE YOU
ever been abandoned by anyone?: yes
if so, are you afraid of people leaving you now?: perhaps
ever talked about a friend behind their back?: see above
FINAL QUESTIONS
have you ever been to therapy of any kind?: hell yes
do you think you need it?: of course
do you think you have issues to overcome?: yes
what is one thing you would erase from your past?: trying certain things
what is one thing you would change about yourself?: stabilize my neurochemistry
who is one person you are having a conflict with right now?: Benjy
what would you say to them if you talked to them?: Same shit I always say
if you've ever lied, why did you do it?: who knows
do you feel like your friends accept you? yes