Tears of a Clown
After the initial shock and the acceptance and everything like that comes today. I don't exactly know how I feel at the moment, there's just too many things to think about inside my head. Seemingly trying to please anyone has left a void in me, and I don't really know how to fill that empty space. I thought that I'd have an answer to it a week ago, but that answer is gone now, probably lost on me forever due to developments beyond my control. Just roll with the tides though, it's what I plan to do.
I've put on the facade. I'm okay with it, and I've proven it with my toleration of it all. Things are going on as if they were normal, and they are, they are normal, at least I'd like to think they were. Granted things may never be the same, but I'm willing to go with the change now, experience a different aspect of it all. Who knows, maybe this time around it won't hurt so much.
So I've borrowed Viewtiful Joe from my cousin. It's a really fun game, but I'm glad I didn't purchase it because it's really short. I haven't beaten it yet, but I'm nearing the end, at least of the easy version. I'll try the harder stuff later, when I've mastered the game.
I forgot to add a McKie to my McDonalds order yesterday, or rather, early early early this morning. How shameful of me.
If asked what I value more, friends or family, I know I'd never be able to answer that question. My friends are another family and my family is another group of friends. They're interrelated, and I'd never be able to distinguish which I value more. Maybe that's why things have such an impact on me and I end up caring much more than I should. My eyes were opened to that yesterday.
Just a confession.
I've put on the facade. I'm okay with it, and I've proven it with my toleration of it all. Things are going on as if they were normal, and they are, they are normal, at least I'd like to think they were. Granted things may never be the same, but I'm willing to go with the change now, experience a different aspect of it all. Who knows, maybe this time around it won't hurt so much.
So I've borrowed Viewtiful Joe from my cousin. It's a really fun game, but I'm glad I didn't purchase it because it's really short. I haven't beaten it yet, but I'm nearing the end, at least of the easy version. I'll try the harder stuff later, when I've mastered the game.
I forgot to add a McKie to my McDonalds order yesterday, or rather, early early early this morning. How shameful of me.
If asked what I value more, friends or family, I know I'd never be able to answer that question. My friends are another family and my family is another group of friends. They're interrelated, and I'd never be able to distinguish which I value more. Maybe that's why things have such an impact on me and I end up caring much more than I should. My eyes were opened to that yesterday.
Just a confession.