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I kinda think I got my purpose in life. I'm a tester.
My thing is, I am in love with straight men. They are everything I strive to be. I don't want to be this sissy woman I have become. I want to be normal and still love men. Every friendship I have with a man though makes no sense to me. At prom when Jason asked me if he could grab my ass, then that awkward moment when we were going to dance together and didn't cause I found it more awkward. Then another guy I want, a name that also begins with a J, like he feels for me more than just a friend but is totally straight and with someone else. Why can't they be into me? I get it, I am gay they are straight, people don't turn, it's not a choice. I just wish I could be with someone who I know will love me. Someone who I know is just what I want. Straight guys offer that, even if only for a little while. I don't know what to do.
I long for love but it is refusing my offers.
I shall forever be alone, well great, if you need a back up person to take you places call me, I have no life.
My thing is, I am in love with straight men. They are everything I strive to be. I don't want to be this sissy woman I have become. I want to be normal and still love men. Every friendship I have with a man though makes no sense to me. At prom when Jason asked me if he could grab my ass, then that awkward moment when we were going to dance together and didn't cause I found it more awkward. Then another guy I want, a name that also begins with a J, like he feels for me more than just a friend but is totally straight and with someone else. Why can't they be into me? I get it, I am gay they are straight, people don't turn, it's not a choice. I just wish I could be with someone who I know will love me. Someone who I know is just what I want. Straight guys offer that, even if only for a little while. I don't know what to do.
I long for love but it is refusing my offers.
I shall forever be alone, well great, if you need a back up person to take you places call me, I have no life.