My Head Hurts

[darkknightradic]

I've been searching most of this evening for wedding info, cabin/chalet rentals, places to have our ceremony at, etc. and the rest of the afternoon, when I wasn't running around with my dad, was spent looking up information on several companies (Sun Micro, RedHat, Microsoft, Yahoo, IBM, Ryan's and Google) to see how worthy they are of my investment

Comments

*blinking*

[artzamy23]

I am going to be very polite and genteel and not speak my mind. I appreciate the "voice of reason", however Alex and I have been close as in close friends for quite some time. It seems as though when our relationship rekindled it was though a puzzle piece slid into place. I do not know how to explain it exactly, but when you find that person that makes your life click, perspectively speaking, and it hurts so much when I leave, when he leaves, when we leave.. and the sound of his voice brings peace to a chaotic day - I ache inside when we are apart. I hate the phone, I hate the distance... I hate the fact that gas prices are climbing higher which makes it harder to visit. I can not express my thoughts clearly on a two-dimensional medium, but I feel complete with Alex. I feel like a family when we are together. That might not be the answer that you desire to hear, however, it is the answer that rings true in my heart and soul. Divorce? Over my dead body...

Just my two cents worth,

Amy

Re: *blinking*

[artzamy23]

No offense taken, however, I can not compose a decent reply as my son is playing rather LOUDLY with the KITTY (insert random two year old boyish squeal). Thank you for the thoughts, I am trying to get Alex moved to Knoxville ASAP as soon as a better paying job opens up for him. We are trying to settle on a date in June, and trust me pre-marital counseling will be a given. We have discussed finances, and I am attempting to be more disciplined in my spending and not be OMG I am BRIDEZILLA... must have $100,000 wedddddinnngggg.... no, I am trying to be thrifty frugal so that a big debt is not the earmark of a marital life together. Hence, my tax refund will be paying off as many bills as possible. But, yes... the voice of reason is a good voice. And yes, I know about Jamie... and Leslie... and Cathy... *sigh* See, I can't compose my thoughts into one tangible sentence.. gah... I need more caffeine. I will post more later, Valis... I promise. :)

[lateda]

I happen to think it's a beautiful thing. These 2 have known each other for a VERY long time so I wouldn't consider it jumping into anything.

I wish you the best happiness and blessings.

[artzamy23]

Thank you for your words of kindness. I am happy (even though I was crying after the first Valis post which influenced the theme of my reply) and I want to continue to be happy with Alex. My pastor once asked a couple who had been dating for sometime why they had not married yet. They both responded that they were broke. His reply was why not be broke together if you love each other. That comment spoke to me. If I wait for life to stabalize, my finances to be rock-solid, etc, it does not mean that I will be truly happy. So, I do thank you for your well-wishes.

Have a great day,

Amy

[darkknightradic]

(:

[artzamy23]

I love you, darling! Have a great day at work.