where is the bright side?
So I am really sad and alone lately. I wish I could feel differently about my life, I hope things can get better. One thing that is pretty positive is that so far I lost 14 pounds in the last 5 weeks yay for me. I'm on my way to a better looking me. But everything else seems to be sucking alot. I really need a huge hug from an attractive male. I wish I could have the one I want but he just seems to be getting further away all the time. Everything is totally different with him I guess. What else I need to really get my life on the right track again I need to get back in school and really do what I love and that is art. Next chance to sign up for school I will that will really make me happy. I just need to get through all this tough emotional shit and not let it bring me down into the hole that I always let it. I miss being happy, I miss having some type of friends around me. I don't even have one friend to spend time with and at least have some good laughs with. I want to get drunk. ok thats it.