Crappy times..
Well I have to go to work soon...I'm sooo excited rright, I wish things were different with work if so it may possibly be a more enjoyable place to work. It seems everyone s feeling the same way about since hmm about 6 people quite in the last couple weeks. I wanted to try for full time, but now I am hearing things about that they are going to be cutting hours and such. :sigh: On my way to work yesterday I started crying, it wasn't really all about going to work but thinking of stuff and people, person why can't I not think of that dumbass? Why does it still have to hurt to think about it? Why can't I just get over it? I'm a fucking idiot for even thinking I was cared for at all. I guess I thought it would have been different I actually believed. Hell if I'll do that ever again, I know its a shitty way to live but what the fuck else am I going to to. Right now I can give a fuck about guys, I look at them and all but don't bother. Its me time I am seriously watching everything I eat so far I am down 6 pounds so hopefully I can shed this weight and be totally happy with who I am and be more confident. So that is about what is going on with my life right now...One exciting thing to look foward to is going to see Bloc Party with Vladamir, he popped into Best Buy last night did really get to chat since I was working and I had already had my break. But thats on tuesday so cant wait :) anywho I guess I should get ready for work. ciao