Fuck them all!

[darkice1515]

So- my family is fucked. I've decided this. My mother is super stressed and super busy- she works and goes to school and basically provides for the rest of them (Im not entirely included in 'them') but she is going to snap one of these days soon and just hit town. Great lovely- My brother- told my mother ON MOTHER'S DAY that he smokes- weed and cigs- I was like WHY THE FUCK DID YOU TELL HER THAT- she was crushed by it- he was convinced she didn't care- Im like you made her cry! I don't care that he smokes weed and cigs- for I do too- and he knows that we smoke together sometimes- but he needs to get his shit together- he is going to succumb to nothing. If he would just do his shit- then he could smoke all he wants- kinda like a reward ya know? But he doesn't he skips school (more than I ever did and I did a lot) He fucks around and does NOTHING. Then he bitches when he doesn't get something and then my mother just gives into him- it's beyond irritating. Which takes me to my father- for some reason my father loathes my brother. I don't know why- other than the aspect of Travis does nothing with himself- but neither does my father- he's 'depressed' so he sits at home and sulks about it all fucking day and doesn't do anything and it's pissing my mother off. I heard the word the divorce come up- and I just disregarded it. Maybe it needs to be an option- but like that is going to help out Travis at all- that'll fuck him up more- and like we need that to happen- he's fucked for life as his- lets help it out some more right? I can't sit here and watch them unravel a horrible fate- I can't. I won't be the one to try and keep things going either- It shouldn't be MY responisbility to try and fix things, try and balance out the good and the bad- it's not my job to keep this family together- Im sick of being the mediator- It wasn't supposed to be like this- I moved out in the first place to get away from all this shit- to give them something else to think about, other than how much they all piss each other off. Im stressed out because of them. My brother needs to grow up and get his shit together, my father needs to do the same thing- though I have given up hope on him, and my mother needs to just chill the fuck out. I told her to take her sister (my aunt) and go up to t duluth or something and take a vacation. And she was like we don't have any money- and I told her it can't always be about the money- If she hits town they are fucked- She bounces, Im out too- fuck'em- Im not going to be the one to hold those two together when she takes off. Mom bounces I say peace the fuck out.

Im fixing my car today too. Not that I have any money to really do that with but hey Im used to being broke