Save me
I feel like I am losing track of reality and myself. I feel unloved, and unwanted. No one loves me. No one wants to be by my side. I am all alone in this world. I want to sleep forever. Only when I sleep do I feel at peace. When I wake up I realize that my life is shit. No one to love. No one to hold. No one. What is my purpose in life? Why am I still alive? I am a waste of space. Don’t feel bad for me. For bad for the person who could be in my shoes using what I have to the fullest. I think about killing myself often now. Why am I in college? I am not doing well. I will be a college drop out. Why not do it now and saved myself some time and money. I am a loser and I will forever be a loser. I will never be good enough for anyone. I am a let down to my family they believed in me. My neighbors believed in my and I let them down. I can’t face them as a loser. I let them down. I let down everyone I know and love. Hell I can’t even help the people I love. When ever I love someone I hurt them. Because I am a person who should not be around other people. I should be locked up and never let out. I should be isolated from the people I love and know so I will never hurt them again. There is no point to my life other then being a failure. I put on masks to hide my true feelings form people because I don’t want them to feel bad for me or know that I am such a horrible person. This body I have is useless it is a big monstrous waste of blood and semen. I wish I was killed that day when they car almost hit me, I wish I had killed myself those time. So I wouldn’t be such a let down and a failure. Why do I have to keep living in a world when I am so powerless and useless and a fucking moron? Hell I cant even read a book all the way through. Because I am so dumb. Maybe that is why all my friends are smarter then me. Hell I am jesouly of all my friends because they are better then me in the things I wish I could do. Read, write, play video games. If there truly is a god I am his joke. I am the thing that is put here to make other people say hey at least I am not that guy. That stupid ugly black guy. I am so ugly I am a monster look at me. My nose is ugly I am fat I smell bad. I wear glasses and I am too lazy to change any of it because I suck. Yeah Webster you suck you fucking ass hole. You keep having thought about killing yourself why not do it. You fucking piece of shit. You know why people hate you? It is because you are ugly, you are stupid and no matter what you do you will always let people down. Name one thing you have done for society. Nothing, you where born a loser and you will die a loser. You know why you won’t have a happy relationship, it is because you are too sensitive you fucking bitch, cry that all you do. You emotional douche bad. That why girls won’t love you, you are not a man you have the body of a fucking monster with a fucking pussy. A girl doesn’t need another fucking pussy they have one which is why you are worthless. You are lower then dirt. Hell if you died maybe, just maybe your ashes could be used on a farm to give life to some plants. Yes you would be better as compost for plant then what you are not.