What if...

May 03, 2006 22:26

Hey LJ junkies. What is up?

Not much here. Right now I am listening to the sadest song. It is called 'What if' by Kate Winslet. I really think music can alter ones mood. After listening to this song i am severly depressed, lol. But anyhoo, i shall carry on.
So here recently I have been feeling really alone in this world. I dont know why. I occasionally get this way. I have people who care about me, but...i still feel alone. Like no one really understands me. I swear sometimes I think I am a fucking mutant. Wandering this vast land where everyone is pretty much the same...and then here i am...totally strange and alone. A subhuman. I wish for adventure and excitement. Something new and fresh. I want to feel young again and not old. *sigh*

I went to the female doctor....AHHH! Twas scary. I had never been before. I was so nervous that i nearly cried. It wasnt though as bad as I thought ird be. Granted, it was no walk in the park. All is well down below though. Good for me.Lol. And why I am sharing this with you...i do not know.

well everyone send good energies my way and prayers that my life pick up. Love u guys.

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