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[darkhasst]

i leave to go to orientation tomorrow.
we'll get there wed. evening and stay the night in a hotel.
then start bright and early for a day of scheduled hooha
then spend the night in the dorm
then wait around for scheduling/do any activity you want friday

i'm excited and terrified
what if i dont make a single friend
what if no one wants to talk to me
what if i dont fit in at all
what if
what if
what if

and i dont know why i'm panicked
i made friends easily at girls state
and in my classes this year
and with anyone new at work.

i dont really have a problem with shyness anymore
so why am i so afraid?

its just different.
and scary.

go orientation, wahoowa.