Of Feeling Conflicted
Hm, I've been feeling conflicted lately. I think the initial joy of being on vacation has started to wear off and I sort of wish I could be back at school. But I don't want to go to classes or have homework, necessarily, I think it's more that I want space to myself/away from my parents again. Which is kind of weird, because at first I was enjoying being able to spend more time with family. I still do, and it is nice in a way to be at home, but I feel like they're judging me or something. For not doing much, being on the computer a lot, sleeping in late etc. My sister is sort of a different case. I love hanging out with her and we have a lot of fun together, but I feel like she really pressures me to be girlier, like she is. Which... no. No thanks. Right now I'm at my grandma's house, which is good for giving me some time away, but kind of boring because there's not as much on TV and I'm more limited in being able to drive places (I'd have to borrow a car and I don't know where anything is).
I know my dad really thinks I should get a job, and I probably should, but I'm conflicted about that too. I'd love to have more money, and I need the work experience. It would give me something to do and get me out of the house, give me some space from family. But I don't know what sort of jobs to look for, nobody's probably hiring anyway, and they probably wouldn't want to hire me. Also I'm kind of iffy about having time commitments tying up my summer. Not that I have anything else planned, or know what else I would do if I wasn't working, but still.
I really want to go on a road trip. I think that would be awesome. Or just go up to Tahoe for a bit. Get away, do something different and exciting. Idk. I'm going to Fanime with friends in about a week, so maybe that'll help satisfy my desire for excitement. Hopefully the whole summer won't be like this.
(Also, note: it's not a good idea to wear new shoes with thin socks on a 20-30 minute walk up the road with no backup plan for if you start to get blisters. Ouch.)
I know my dad really thinks I should get a job, and I probably should, but I'm conflicted about that too. I'd love to have more money, and I need the work experience. It would give me something to do and get me out of the house, give me some space from family. But I don't know what sort of jobs to look for, nobody's probably hiring anyway, and they probably wouldn't want to hire me. Also I'm kind of iffy about having time commitments tying up my summer. Not that I have anything else planned, or know what else I would do if I wasn't working, but still.
I really want to go on a road trip. I think that would be awesome. Or just go up to Tahoe for a bit. Get away, do something different and exciting. Idk. I'm going to Fanime with friends in about a week, so maybe that'll help satisfy my desire for excitement. Hopefully the whole summer won't be like this.
(Also, note: it's not a good idea to wear new shoes with thin socks on a 20-30 minute walk up the road with no backup plan for if you start to get blisters. Ouch.)