I really should probably be sleeping
Ever had a time when you felt like you were questioning something really intensely deep about yourself, which you had not really seen reason to question before but then, looking back, you suppose you did sort of wonder and you always had your own ideas, and you feel like a traitor and a poseur to even be wondering, but maybe the pieces fit together, except maybe you're just imagining things again and trying to be a special snowflake, and it's not really all that bad because it's sort of been there for a while but never really bothered you, except now you keep going to the internet because you have so much free time recently, and you don't know how to accept it and go back to the way things were before when you had unconsciously sort of accepted it, but didn't quite know how to say it? But mostly you just want to stop making such a big deal of it to yourself and get over yourself because you really don't have very big problems at all.
Sometimes I really don't know how I see myself. Who am I in my own head? How can I introspect so much and still not always know?
Self, repeat after self. It is totally fine to be in the middle. It is totally fine for this just to be a personal thing about the way you think of yourself and not a thing that you make a big deal about to other people. Now stop worrying and being all confused. And go to bed already, it's three in the morning.
(In other news, Homestuck update = YAY OMG END OF ACT SO EPIC *FLAIL*. Halloween is almost here, hurrah! As of now, I think I will probably not be doing NaNo again because I don't know how the timing would work out what with college and all. I am almost positive I am taking the chicken way out on this because I know I could handle it, but I don't know if I'm ready to give up my social life and I haven't been plotting enough to really get into it. Maybe next year? I will try to write in November anyway and if I start getting really guilty I can always leap into the fray late.)
Sometimes I really don't know how I see myself. Who am I in my own head? How can I introspect so much and still not always know?
Self, repeat after self. It is totally fine to be in the middle. It is totally fine for this just to be a personal thing about the way you think of yourself and not a thing that you make a big deal about to other people. Now stop worrying and being all confused. And go to bed already, it's three in the morning.
(In other news, Homestuck update = YAY OMG END OF ACT SO EPIC *FLAIL*. Halloween is almost here, hurrah! As of now, I think I will probably not be doing NaNo again because I don't know how the timing would work out what with college and all. I am almost positive I am taking the chicken way out on this because I know I could handle it, but I don't know if I'm ready to give up my social life and I haven't been plotting enough to really get into it. Maybe next year? I will try to write in November anyway and if I start getting really guilty I can always leap into the fray late.)