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I think I am losing my umph. If you know what I mean.
I stayed home from work today. I just really felt the need to sleep in and then spend the rest of the day trying to get my head together. I don't even no what my deal is. Maybe (i hope) I am just pmsing. Who knows. I just feel like I am being lazy. I should be doing so much more, but yet when it comes time to do something I just don't, nor do I care.
Mollies away message :
"find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. wait for the guy who kisses your forhead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how lucky he is to have you.
wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...thats her.""
I think a little of that is bothering me these days. Frank is really bothering me. He's a good friend to me. He calls and no one else does. Does he love me? I think so. Is he the guy above? the mysterious dream man that shows you he loves you all the time, that thinks and cares about you all day long? No. Will he ever be that guy? No. I think I am waiting for him to come home so we can settle. and why would I settle with a man who doesn't treat me like the mysterious dream man above? Because thats just it...dream men are a for day dreams, pretty girls and movies. I get the other guys, the ones that hurt, fuck, and leave. I just for once want to be swept off my feet. Once I want to have someone who understands me because they took the time to learn about me, someone who doesn't ignore me and say sorry a week later, someone who listens when I talk because they love it when I talk.
Ok Cinderella the pumpkin ride is over. Snap back to reality.
I have dishes to do
I stayed home from work today. I just really felt the need to sleep in and then spend the rest of the day trying to get my head together. I don't even no what my deal is. Maybe (i hope) I am just pmsing. Who knows. I just feel like I am being lazy. I should be doing so much more, but yet when it comes time to do something I just don't, nor do I care.
Mollies away message :
"find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. wait for the guy who kisses your forhead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how lucky he is to have you.
wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...thats her.""
I think a little of that is bothering me these days. Frank is really bothering me. He's a good friend to me. He calls and no one else does. Does he love me? I think so. Is he the guy above? the mysterious dream man that shows you he loves you all the time, that thinks and cares about you all day long? No. Will he ever be that guy? No. I think I am waiting for him to come home so we can settle. and why would I settle with a man who doesn't treat me like the mysterious dream man above? Because thats just it...dream men are a for day dreams, pretty girls and movies. I get the other guys, the ones that hurt, fuck, and leave. I just for once want to be swept off my feet. Once I want to have someone who understands me because they took the time to learn about me, someone who doesn't ignore me and say sorry a week later, someone who listens when I talk because they love it when I talk.
Ok Cinderella the pumpkin ride is over. Snap back to reality.
I have dishes to do