Aug 12, 2003 04:18
I've been thinking and I think It's time for a new job. I'm finally gonna start lookin'. I'm too lazy to search for one in papers and on the outside so I'll probably just be lookin' on the internet, but what the hell it's a start. I've been there to fuckin' long and had to deal with their shit too fuckin' long. I need a break and a way better paycheck.
Last night over at my cousin's house one of his friends came over. She told me that I looked familiar and then said that I was in her French class. She was one of the million Sophomores in the class and I was the only Senior with only two Juniors. Anyways, she graduated in June and told me that she had been working the summer and was planning to go to Highline in the fall. This was a very depressing statement considering that she was really young in one of my classes my Senior year and here she is gonna go to Highline in about a month. She has completely passed me up on doing something with her life. But you know what? All is good. 'Cause I was thinking a lot today and my conclusion is that I don't give a fuckin' shit. The reason I haven't gone back to school already is 'cause deep down I don't want to. Who fuckin' cares? I don't anymore. I'm not gonna go only because I'm scared of being a loser. Life isn't all about being successful. It's also about being happy. I have a great girl who I feel closer to now than I ever have, I have a good friend, and I have a family who cares about me. So what if I don't become a fuckin' FBI agent or Computer Programmer or President of the United States. Maybe I'd rather be a Forklift Driver, or work at Blockbuster, or be a supervisor at Cinema 17. It doesn't matter so long as I'm happy and have something to live for. So what if I drive a forklift for a living. It's an easy fucking job and I have friends there who I care about and who care about me. So what if I only have one close friend. He's a good friend to have 'cause he always gots my back. So what if my girlfriend lives thirty miles away. Whenever we hang out, we have a great time and my feelings for her are more than I've felt for anyone. So what if I have bug bites all over myself. I had a good time Saturday night and it's worth the itching. So what if I have a decently long entry. I'ts my entry. I have shit to say, so deal with it.
And on a lighter note, I got tickets to see Saves the Day and Taking Back Sunday October 13 at the Showbox. It's a long ways away, but oh well, It'll be worth the wait. As far as I'm concerned, only cool people at going. So if you don't think your cool or don't want to be cool for a night then don't bother spending 18.50 for a ticket. Otherwise, what are you fuckin' insane not to go pick one up. Get in your fuckin' cars and drive down there right now.!