You know..
Birthdays are supposed to be fun.. but so far today has been filled with nothing at all but pain and anguish. I tried something I tought might suit me better than well other things.. what am I talking about? I tried seeing an older women, and quite frankly all that means is she will break your heart 10 times worse than anyone else ever has in the history of your life. It is the most terrible feeling in the world, you have the conversation about her playing games on you and she of course says she isn't then it turns out your just a peon in the grand scheme of things and you feel used. You realize that age just brings about the ability to cause more pain to you.