I think i have out grown my livejournal name
Today was an amazing day off. Today I seriously biked Boston T-shirt style (Note that it is January 6..) Biking along the Charles River is really something wild. Spent some time at Quincy Market, watched some street theater entertainers, walked through Haymarket through all the street grocers. It really felt like the first day of Spring, and everyone was out and about taking full advantage. Biking through Boston is awesome, there is so much to look at, it really is a facinating city just because of its Historic buildings amongst the hustle of a typical modern day city. The waterfront is also something very beautiful, the over all experience is just something inspiring. People were even ice skating today in the common. I seriously felt like I was on another planet today. Hey but I don't mind. I only get out to excersize when its warm.
Even though i'm out here working to keep my rent and a little food in my stomach, I often feel like I've been on a long vacation. Being away from everybody I know has been for some reason what I really needed. Don't get me wrong, I miss a few select people dearly, but everything I have been able to experience, observe, and whatever else has flooded me with personal thought. I have felt great inspiration these past few weeks and I often think I going crazy from it. With every film I see, the desire to create my own film hits me harder and harder. I have all these ideas, and then I never commit to them because I always feel they can be improved upon, and perfected, and intergrated in a stronger way. And then I see great films, the ones that impress me the most and I realize that I have such a long way to go.
And then I stop and know, I have to pick a place to start. I have ten or so pages of something that some people think has some promise, but its the same 10 or so pages I have had for months now, just being re-written and changed and so on. Then i drop it for a while because i'm not feeling what it is all about, and then I feel it again and re-write it all a different way.
Whatever it comes out as, its going to be perhaps the most personal thing I have done, and I want it that way. The coolest thing is it is all me, and all my thoughts. I have always played in bands because I feel I work best creating with people, bouncing ideas off eachother and making music that way. Once I get going on my next project, it will end up being like that too, with the music, actors, and everything else, but in the end it will be all me, and I am dying to see what that will look like.
Even though i'm out here working to keep my rent and a little food in my stomach, I often feel like I've been on a long vacation. Being away from everybody I know has been for some reason what I really needed. Don't get me wrong, I miss a few select people dearly, but everything I have been able to experience, observe, and whatever else has flooded me with personal thought. I have felt great inspiration these past few weeks and I often think I going crazy from it. With every film I see, the desire to create my own film hits me harder and harder. I have all these ideas, and then I never commit to them because I always feel they can be improved upon, and perfected, and intergrated in a stronger way. And then I see great films, the ones that impress me the most and I realize that I have such a long way to go.
And then I stop and know, I have to pick a place to start. I have ten or so pages of something that some people think has some promise, but its the same 10 or so pages I have had for months now, just being re-written and changed and so on. Then i drop it for a while because i'm not feeling what it is all about, and then I feel it again and re-write it all a different way.
Whatever it comes out as, its going to be perhaps the most personal thing I have done, and I want it that way. The coolest thing is it is all me, and all my thoughts. I have always played in bands because I feel I work best creating with people, bouncing ideas off eachother and making music that way. Once I get going on my next project, it will end up being like that too, with the music, actors, and everything else, but in the end it will be all me, and I am dying to see what that will look like.