brief venting if I may.
so today was not so great. Being down town sort of like the old days was fun, but sad becuase it is not half of what it was last year. Me Colin, Britnney, Dallas, Jessi, and Tim all went and laughed our asses off at the mall... A woman remarked that we were free entertainment. Ahh the life of the actor. We were really just doing impressions, reminissing, and talking about the occasions that make you pee your pants, not alot, but just enough to make it count. hmmm. nice. But of course, we had to go back for call backs...all the while chanting "yeah we are the hawks, we, we like to SQWACK!!!" yeah don't ask we are cool. But uh. call backs were not good for me. I felt a wee bit ditched. The people I was working with I had no chemistry on stage with, and my creative drive was at it's worst. To add to that we had to have a shtick of some sort, and hell, I just gave up. I felt humiliated, and I mean I think that within me I have the capabilty of being good, but for some reason I just can't evoke it. I don't know I just feel that people get irritated with me, and I am not trying to be all like "I suck! I suck!" But I just don't know what is up. Maybe classical is not my thing. well derr it's not. But I want to be good, I want people to want to pair up with me in readings. And I think that is my real aspiration for this year. Well, I am gonna go becuase theres old ladies in the living room shouting "bring the animals!!!!" and I am confused. Good night. Love to all. <3 P.s. Adam makes me smile.