And now for something completely depressing!
I've picked up Soredemo Ikite Yuku and it's easily the best drama I've seen in awhile. Very emotional, very gloomy and full of tragic things, but also superbly written and acted and filmed. Like, it's one of those dramas that is just quality.
The story is about two people connected through a murder - the victim's older brother and the killer's younger sister. Fifteen years later, the murderer is released from prison and both of them are drawn back together for doom, despair, revenge, confessions, family secrets, and POSSIBLY deliciously conflicted romance (oh please oh please drama gods).
And that's all I can say without being spoilery, so now I'll take it behind the cut.
This is Aki-chan. She was out flying her kite in 1996 when a teenage boy bludgeoned her to death with a hammer and threw her body in the lake.
You don't actually see anything, but somehow that makes it worse. Like when her father notices her kite flying from a distance, and suddenly, for no reason he can fathom, it goes limp and starts drifting to the ground... D: D: D:
This is EITA! *___* Hiroki.
Hiroki is scruffy, self-loathing recluse who still manages to be adorable, like when he sits all alone on the docks eating a bland breakfast because he subconsciously hates himself and has stripped his life of all pleasures... and then his pants ride up and you see these RANDOM COLORED SOCKS.
It's like Eita can't not be cute. Even when he's not trying.
Hiroki has lots of issues, starting with the fact he's 29 and lives with his dying father and has never had a relationship with a woman. Ever. He was supposed to be watching Aki-chan the day she was murdered, but instead he was off buying dirty magazines, which led to guilt and hallucinations (!!!) and probably the most twisted puberty ever.
His entire life fell apart that day - his sister gone, his family broken, his future ruined. And he was looking at Titty Tiffany when it happened.
Say it with me: issues.
This is Futaba, the killer's younger sister. For fifteen years she and her family have basically lived in exile, always moving, always stigmatized by her brother's crime. She grew up awkward and alone and depressed and slightly suicidal. In her own words, "I don't want to die, I just don't want to live."
Well, as long as that's clear.
Fifteen years after the murder, Futaba appears at Hiroki's place...
... and despite a shared history of doom and gloom and child death, THEY'RE SOMEHOW REALLY CUTE TOGETHER?
They're both such awkward maladjusted rejects, omg. They have no idea how to deal with each other. Their convos are full of ums and ers and nervous energy. Of course, they also have to deal with the whole "my brother bludgeoned your 7 year old sister to death" thing.
Especially when it's revealed that Killer Bro has been released from prison.
THE PICTURE HE DREW IN LOCK UP. D:
Outraged and vengeful, Hiroki cuts his hair and starts carrying around a knife. I'm sure a psycho child killer is shaking in his boots at the thought of a skinny prematurely gray 29-year-old-virgin Rambo... but whatever. SHIRTLESS SCENE! Woohoo! \o/
He hates her brother! She defends his innocence! He gets mad and tries to strangle her! You know, the usual.
"DO YOU WANT TO KNOW HOW AKI FELT?!"
Instead of fighting, she tells him to GO AHEAD AND KILL HER. She actually laughs about it when she promises not to haunt him.
Her attitude makes perfect sense when she drops the bombshell that HER BROTHER TRIED TO KILL HER WHEN THEY WERE KIDS. All those times she was defending his innocence? She knew he'd done it. All those letters she kept from prison? SHE KNEW HE WAS GUILTY.
"If I had died at that time, maybe Aki-chan might not have had to."
AS;AKDASDF;SDFFJSDLFJSDLFJD
Meanwhile, Killer Bro is enjoying his freedom by hanging out with new little girls and nursing strange bloody injuries on his hands.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH?
Basically, this drama is crazy and emotional and perfect and I'm already shipping the leads like burning. MOREMOREMORE.