Back to reality.
I feel so fucking shitty today.
For Christ's sake, I spent the weekend with my family, + Thommie, Katie, lil' Thommie...and coming back home after a weekend of family/baby fun sucks.
Here is what I come back to...
Sight: grass overwhelming my poor little trailer,
dirty deck furniture from all the rain,
a sink full of dishes,
an unmade bed,
and shittons of clothing strewn everywhere.
Sound: neighbor who beats wife screaming, once again, about cornbread,
entire trailer parks child population screaming,
and in my house...silence.
Touch: the screen door banging me on the ass as I try to carry in my life, in a laundry basket
Taste: looks like it's going to be popcorn this week, by the looks of the fridge
Smell: Stale cigarette smoke...the night before I left the trailer I was having a freak-out attack and chain smoking to beat a freight train.
Such is my existance.
RANDOM THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TO...(to prevent me from stabbing myself before the week is up)
My goal for the week is to catch up on all my homework assignments and make at least a B on the final exam in math class.
Brent's gone...that sucks too. I wanna go out to Asian Garden...
I'm going to go start completing my goal. Please, GOD, let this week fly.
For Christ's sake, I spent the weekend with my family, + Thommie, Katie, lil' Thommie...and coming back home after a weekend of family/baby fun sucks.
Here is what I come back to...
Sight: grass overwhelming my poor little trailer,
dirty deck furniture from all the rain,
a sink full of dishes,
an unmade bed,
and shittons of clothing strewn everywhere.
Sound: neighbor who beats wife screaming, once again, about cornbread,
entire trailer parks child population screaming,
and in my house...silence.
Touch: the screen door banging me on the ass as I try to carry in my life, in a laundry basket
Taste: looks like it's going to be popcorn this week, by the looks of the fridge
Smell: Stale cigarette smoke...the night before I left the trailer I was having a freak-out attack and chain smoking to beat a freight train.
Such is my existance.
RANDOM THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TO...(to prevent me from stabbing myself before the week is up)
- Being done with this God forsaken math class
- Glo/Tori's party this weekend and getting trashed/stoned/etc.
- Kaiyah's little leg splint being off and her running freeeeeeeeeeeee
My goal for the week is to catch up on all my homework assignments and make at least a B on the final exam in math class.
Brent's gone...that sucks too. I wanna go out to Asian Garden...
I'm going to go start completing my goal. Please, GOD, let this week fly.