Problematic..?

[darkest_shade]

Ok so I know that I don't update often but I think that I need to make this known to a certain someone if she even reads this. OK so life has been pretty great. College, friends, driving around the town. I even have a girlfriend thats so amazing she's like....well WOW is the only thing I can say. However, due to circumstances I could have controlled, I chose to check up on Ashley. I don't know why, and I don't even know why I haven't stopped. I took one look at her MySpace pictures and felt a surge of emotions that i thought were long gone. This happened like 3 weeks ago but still they linger. I hate to admit it but even though months have passed and we haven't talked, I miss her. Mallorie knows that and though she's not happy with it, she's trying to help me out with them. Everything Ashley and I went though together (good and bad) still lives on inside me. I am aware that Ashley is now involved in what i believe to be a strong relationship with "Sugerlips". I know who this person is, but anyone who doesn't know by now, doesn't need to know. I haven't let anyone know the following: It bothers me. There, I said it. I'm not proud but it does. I wish these feelings would leave just as fast as they came back but i guess you can never forget those that you truly love(d). I can honestly say that I don't know how I feel about her anymore. I'm in love with Mallorie, I really am, I just have these reoccurring feelings for a former heartthrob. If anyone could lend a hand with some advice or an exorcism to get her out of my head, please do. No need to comment but I would like someone to let Ashley know that I made this post. Even though months have passed, she deserves to know that for some reason, I will never forget her.

I don't really know where to put this in my entry (it doesn't even fit in with the rest of it) so I guess this is a better place than nowhere: I Love You Mallorie Edwards! 1 month passed, hopefully many happy more.

~Bri