dying from the inside...
So I have come to the conclusion that I do not take help easily. I am basically on the verge of passing out from sickness but I hate having Mom and Dad take care of me. I just get so weak when I get sick. I think it is the pride that resides in my small mind that refuses me to take charity or presents very well. On my birthday I feel uneasy cause of all the presents I get. Bah...I just sometimes want to disappear into a little place no one will ever find. Like i sometimes feel like my family would be happier if i wasn't around. I really wish I hadn't of spent all my money so I could be out on my own where no one would be bothered by me and my stupid body. I just...get really emo when I am sick cause I can't do anything.