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I have been seeing someone for a while now, a new happening for me.
I've gotten to know her pretty well, and she probably knows me better than I know her. She has some pretty heavy emotional baggage from past experiences, and other fairly serious problems.
Unfortunately for me in the past, I have seemed to attract gurls with all kinds of messed up psycho emotional problems. So you could say in a sense that I am somewhat accustomed to this kind of situation. I am not sure if I can deal with it, and the other side of it is asking myself if I want to deal with it? So far my answer is yes.
I have found certain aspects of our relationship to be as close to perfect as I could hope for, but it's frustrating to me to feel like I'm being pushed away. She also has a hard time expressing herself to me, and opening up to me, though I wonder if that will go away given time. It's sort of ironic in a way, I guess I know how my exes felt..
I feel like I'm falling into the same white/asian patterns that I did with my ex. I can't say I'm without my issues reguarding that, and I know that has got to be hard to live with. She is also a good bit taller than I am, but it doesn't seem to bother her at all. Now mind you if someone that doesn't know me reads this let me explain that I am not being racist, but if you read and understand this correctly you will know of the complications I am talking about. The complications that are there.
School is really sucking the life out of me, I will never take this many hours again. Yay and only YEARS left to go sigh hehe. I am too old for this..I think my bio lab graduate student instructor is not very fond of me. I received a 44% on my lab paper yes that is no typo 44!! and its gets better it accounts for 1/4 of our semester grade. I have never received that low of a grade for a paper. How the hell do you give someone a 44%. In his comments the paper was not written to what his own expectations were, since his instructions were not as detailed as his reasoning for taking that many points off. Of course, the HOT gurls in lab all got good grades, and gee I would even wager the same 'errors' that were on my paper were somehow overlooked. Yes, I am basing this on previous labs we have gotten back. Perhaps I am the wrong gender to do well in that class.
I just finished my cycle today I'm up to a beefy 206, time to cut down for summer ;P
I've gotten to know her pretty well, and she probably knows me better than I know her. She has some pretty heavy emotional baggage from past experiences, and other fairly serious problems.
Unfortunately for me in the past, I have seemed to attract gurls with all kinds of messed up psycho emotional problems. So you could say in a sense that I am somewhat accustomed to this kind of situation. I am not sure if I can deal with it, and the other side of it is asking myself if I want to deal with it? So far my answer is yes.
I have found certain aspects of our relationship to be as close to perfect as I could hope for, but it's frustrating to me to feel like I'm being pushed away. She also has a hard time expressing herself to me, and opening up to me, though I wonder if that will go away given time. It's sort of ironic in a way, I guess I know how my exes felt..
I feel like I'm falling into the same white/asian patterns that I did with my ex. I can't say I'm without my issues reguarding that, and I know that has got to be hard to live with. She is also a good bit taller than I am, but it doesn't seem to bother her at all. Now mind you if someone that doesn't know me reads this let me explain that I am not being racist, but if you read and understand this correctly you will know of the complications I am talking about. The complications that are there.
School is really sucking the life out of me, I will never take this many hours again. Yay and only YEARS left to go sigh hehe. I am too old for this..I think my bio lab graduate student instructor is not very fond of me. I received a 44% on my lab paper yes that is no typo 44!! and its gets better it accounts for 1/4 of our semester grade. I have never received that low of a grade for a paper. How the hell do you give someone a 44%. In his comments the paper was not written to what his own expectations were, since his instructions were not as detailed as his reasoning for taking that many points off. Of course, the HOT gurls in lab all got good grades, and gee I would even wager the same 'errors' that were on my paper were somehow overlooked. Yes, I am basing this on previous labs we have gotten back. Perhaps I am the wrong gender to do well in that class.
I just finished my cycle today I'm up to a beefy 206, time to cut down for summer ;P