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As time approaches swiftly.. I cannot help but feel a mixture of emotions. So much, that its now at a point Ive become almost indifferent and indescribable.
Questions bounce around my skull .. and Im leaving definitely on the wrong foot .. especially with my folks. Mum has told a 'cover story' to my extended family because she believes its 'inappropriate' for me to go away on my own to be with Jay for such a long period of time. So instead has explained to everyone that Im going there for a holiday with a friend from Uni for 6 weeks. Im kind of annoyed about it but then I dont really have an input considering I made this mess for them in the first place. I guess Im a brat. Plain and simple.
We had another big fight on Friday and it was my fault mostly. Even got to the point my Dad burst into tears. Unfortunately, we're all our worst enemies and creatures of habit so naturally I suppose I dont know any better since most of my life lessons have been taught by my folks. I just wish they could see things my way sometimes, then again, I too need to be understanding and see their side too.
Tomorrow, Ive got things to do and need to get onto packing. Definitely tomorrow night I will do that.
I just hope what Ive done, will have a good outcome.
13 more days. I'll be Cali bound. For 3 months. Wow.
Questions bounce around my skull .. and Im leaving definitely on the wrong foot .. especially with my folks. Mum has told a 'cover story' to my extended family because she believes its 'inappropriate' for me to go away on my own to be with Jay for such a long period of time. So instead has explained to everyone that Im going there for a holiday with a friend from Uni for 6 weeks. Im kind of annoyed about it but then I dont really have an input considering I made this mess for them in the first place. I guess Im a brat. Plain and simple.
We had another big fight on Friday and it was my fault mostly. Even got to the point my Dad burst into tears. Unfortunately, we're all our worst enemies and creatures of habit so naturally I suppose I dont know any better since most of my life lessons have been taught by my folks. I just wish they could see things my way sometimes, then again, I too need to be understanding and see their side too.
Tomorrow, Ive got things to do and need to get onto packing. Definitely tomorrow night I will do that.
I just hope what Ive done, will have a good outcome.
13 more days. I'll be Cali bound. For 3 months. Wow.