Once again the cycle turns.
The endless cycles turn,
in my minds eye the images burn,
grief is gone, anger has fled,
slowly away the rage has bled.
In the dark of night I seek to find,
some new hope for my weary mind,
but only in the early light of day,
do I find the hope of a new pathway.
Melodic music soothes my soul,
true friends show me that I can still be whole,
she proved to herself she could live without me,
now it's my turn to find serenity.
Well to anyone reading this who doesnt know by now, I'm recording this as a reminder to myself that even in life's seemingly endless mess, there is always a path, it may be well hidden but there is a path to walk in the light. I will never again look back and wonder "What if?" I do not count our divorce as a failing of myself but of a failing of my understanding of the whole situation. I regret that there are many who will tell me "I told you so." At least in my own mind though i know what I had to do and I did it. I do not regret that choice. I tortured myself for a year waiting for her knowing there was no chance, and then a chance came. I jumped, leaped before I looked in fact. Well, now its time again to start a new cycle of life, to start the path over yet again. So any friends reading this, I look forward to hearing from you. I regret that it has been long since i have talked with many of my friends, that so much time has passed between us. I lost myself for a while and just recently realized that my friends are a larger part of myself than I ever let myself believe. Always the ever-determined, self reliant, fool. Signing off. Love you guys/gals, have a great life whatever it may be. And look me up.