Death to the void
I am finding it impossible to get her off my mind, everywhere I go another memory I find.
They drag me through the mud and hang me out to dry, seems I cannot find peace no matter how I try.
I tried to call it down, leave the past and be just friends, I cannot make it happen until my heart mends.
It hurts me so to see her pain, and so I try to help her yet again.
She will not let me assist, in fact instead asks me to cease and desist.
How do I fill this fucking hole, please help me end the void in my soul.
I'm getting pissed the more i learn, that nothing can take away this burn.
I have tried to run from the pain i feel, but it hangs over me like a heavy coat still.
I have tried to accept it and place it in the past, unfortunately the walls I build don't last.
I have even tried to make her see, I've changed again, please come back to me.
She won't accept my heart again, it seems I've caused her too much pain.
I don't like to think about the black, but at this point there's not much turning back.
I can feel her hand gently caressing me, in my mind and heart it will always be.
I cannot wish harm or ill, I love too deep, though the hurt is real.
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Please God, save me from myself.
Please Lord, help me not to need anyone else.
Please Savior, show me the light, that I may not have to face the dark.
Please someone help...
Help me to not fear for my life,
help me to not
help me to
WHY DOES THIS FUCKED UP LIFE HAVE TO BE SO GOD DAMNED FUCKIN COLD!
WHY CANT A GOOD PERSON GET AHEAD! WHY CANT I JUST LIVE MY FUCKIN LIFE WITHOUT BULLSHIT FUCKING EVERYTHING UP!
to anyone reading this i hope you have a great life.
i hope you never have to deal with the bullshit that life seems to love.
i hope most of all that love never leaves you feeling like you acnt go on, like you have no reason left ot be in this world.
i hope that you remember me with fondness and perhaps that i was there for my friends when they needed me
goodbye
Ryan Nicholas Noble 07/21/1981 - 10/29/2007
They drag me through the mud and hang me out to dry, seems I cannot find peace no matter how I try.
I tried to call it down, leave the past and be just friends, I cannot make it happen until my heart mends.
It hurts me so to see her pain, and so I try to help her yet again.
She will not let me assist, in fact instead asks me to cease and desist.
How do I fill this fucking hole, please help me end the void in my soul.
I'm getting pissed the more i learn, that nothing can take away this burn.
I have tried to run from the pain i feel, but it hangs over me like a heavy coat still.
I have tried to accept it and place it in the past, unfortunately the walls I build don't last.
I have even tried to make her see, I've changed again, please come back to me.
She won't accept my heart again, it seems I've caused her too much pain.
I don't like to think about the black, but at this point there's not much turning back.
I can feel her hand gently caressing me, in my mind and heart it will always be.
I cannot wish harm or ill, I love too deep, though the hurt is real.
*******************************************
Please God, save me from myself.
Please Lord, help me not to need anyone else.
Please Savior, show me the light, that I may not have to face the dark.
Please someone help...
Help me to not fear for my life,
help me to not
help me to
WHY DOES THIS FUCKED UP LIFE HAVE TO BE SO GOD DAMNED FUCKIN COLD!
WHY CANT A GOOD PERSON GET AHEAD! WHY CANT I JUST LIVE MY FUCKIN LIFE WITHOUT BULLSHIT FUCKING EVERYTHING UP!
to anyone reading this i hope you have a great life.
i hope you never have to deal with the bullshit that life seems to love.
i hope most of all that love never leaves you feeling like you acnt go on, like you have no reason left ot be in this world.
i hope that you remember me with fondness and perhaps that i was there for my friends when they needed me
goodbye
Ryan Nicholas Noble 07/21/1981 - 10/29/2007