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I haven't updated for aaaaages!!
I'm not in the best of moods right now, I'm kinda...bleugh and I have been for a bit, I have so much work to do and it's just not getting done, why do I always do this???
I'm the kinda person that doesn't get things done, then when there's more and more they get this kind of.. "argh where do I start" feeling and nothing gets done... *sigh*
and bugger! I haven't emailed by psychology so I can't get it done, I'll have to do it during my frees tomorrow..and I better or I'm stuffed.
Key skills however...eugh, don't know what I'm doing there and honestly don't much care.
I've just got a new boyfriend, but...*sigh* well, he's really sweet and nice and gorgeous and stuff..
but he's getting a bit..heavy already. Now I explain to Americans and other people who take that to mean he's trying to make this relationship go really fast, that's not what I mean.
I mean he's too stifling, I'm a free spirit, bound by nothing but the limits of my imagination - and they're very far away.
I forgot to take my phone to college, when I got home I had three txts, one random thing, and two worried "why didn't you reply?" ones. I rarely reply to txts, I can't be bothered or I have no credit.
I got two last night, one saying he'd got home all right and goodnight, one about ten minutes later worried 'cos I hadn't replied, I was trying to sleep! this was nearly 12.30am ffs!
And not ten minutes after we'd got together, I went to the loo and got a txt saying "missing you already"
I despair I really do.
Plus, despite my insistance that I fit better with another person, I'm starting to think my aunt may be right, I'm never going to find the right person for me, never going to fall i love, until I work out who I am and love myself...
*sigh* argh the complicatedness, and at the same time petty, petty teenage troubles.
NB - anybody leave a comment saying "aww" or "huggles" or any cutesy sympathy things, I'll scream. I'm not in the mood for cute sympathy.
I'm not in the best of moods right now, I'm kinda...bleugh and I have been for a bit, I have so much work to do and it's just not getting done, why do I always do this???
I'm the kinda person that doesn't get things done, then when there's more and more they get this kind of.. "argh where do I start" feeling and nothing gets done... *sigh*
and bugger! I haven't emailed by psychology so I can't get it done, I'll have to do it during my frees tomorrow..and I better or I'm stuffed.
Key skills however...eugh, don't know what I'm doing there and honestly don't much care.
I've just got a new boyfriend, but...*sigh* well, he's really sweet and nice and gorgeous and stuff..
but he's getting a bit..heavy already. Now I explain to Americans and other people who take that to mean he's trying to make this relationship go really fast, that's not what I mean.
I mean he's too stifling, I'm a free spirit, bound by nothing but the limits of my imagination - and they're very far away.
I forgot to take my phone to college, when I got home I had three txts, one random thing, and two worried "why didn't you reply?" ones. I rarely reply to txts, I can't be bothered or I have no credit.
I got two last night, one saying he'd got home all right and goodnight, one about ten minutes later worried 'cos I hadn't replied, I was trying to sleep! this was nearly 12.30am ffs!
And not ten minutes after we'd got together, I went to the loo and got a txt saying "missing you already"
I despair I really do.
Plus, despite my insistance that I fit better with another person, I'm starting to think my aunt may be right, I'm never going to find the right person for me, never going to fall i love, until I work out who I am and love myself...
*sigh* argh the complicatedness, and at the same time petty, petty teenage troubles.
NB - anybody leave a comment saying "aww" or "huggles" or any cutesy sympathy things, I'll scream. I'm not in the mood for cute sympathy.