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darkenedred

[28] no respite for the wicked

Nov 13, 2008 20:39

[It's a little disturbing, the livid, insane snarl that twists his lips long after the destruction of Super Fusion ( Read more... )

aftermath, where's that cliff, pile of aaaaaaaangst, super fusion

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blitz_n_chicks November 14 2008, 19:24:11 UTC

Juudai.

...What happened?

darkenedred November 14 2008, 22:01:21 UTC

...Let's just say... you won't be getting your wish anytime soon.

blitz_n_chicks November 14 2008, 22:15:53 UTC

My....

Juudai, what happened?

darkenedred November 14 2008, 22:19:09 UTC

...I was lied to.

Yubel had the damn thing, and she destroyed it where I could see her do so just to get a rise out of me.

I will kill her for it. Whenever I can. If I fail again as I did the first time, I'll keep trying until she's dead.

...Yet, even if I killed everyone on the goddamn island, it still wouldn't change anything at all.

blitz_n_chicks November 14 2008, 22:27:58 UTC

I....see.

darkenedred November 14 2008, 22:39:26 UTC

So unless you just want to die that badly anyway -- and I'd rather not waste the energy -- I cannot help you anymore... unfortunately.

blitz_n_chicks November 14 2008, 23:40:27 UTC

...Juudai. You're not thinking clearly right now. You gotta try and calm down.

darkenedred November 14 2008, 23:42:11 UTC

Honestly? I know.

I have tried.

I can't.

blitz_n_chicks November 14 2008, 23:44:59 UTC

What do you mean, "you can't"? You want me to hit you or something?

darkenedred November 14 2008, 23:49:19 UTC

...No.

I mean I simply can't calm down. No matter what I do, the anger and hate and negativity just won't subside. The only thing I can do is try and keep my mind off it by doing this, regardless of how nonconstructive it is. If I don't, it'll keep simmering until I lose it... again.

blitz_n_chicks November 14 2008, 23:50:12 UTC

Well...then at least you're trying to get it under control.

darkenedred November 14 2008, 23:52:01 UTC

And yet it isn't working.

[bitterly] So obviously I'm doing something wrong, wouldn't you say?

blitz_n_chicks November 15 2008, 01:24:46 UTC

No, not really. You're beyond just "furious". It's going to take time to calm down from something big like that.

darkenedred November 15 2008, 01:26:24 UTC

...........

It's never been this bad before.

blitz_n_chicks November 15 2008, 01:54:38 UTC

......It's gonna be okay.

darkenedred November 15 2008, 01:58:30 UTC

...I'm afraid it won't this time. It isn't just my rampant paranoia or an attack of unprovoked anxiety or rage in this case like it was before.

It's gone, and I can't fix it. There's nothing I can do but be irrationally angry.

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