crying over us
Crying Over Us
I wish i still had all those family traditions
this year has sucked
i remember when we would have dinners every night..
there use to be five of us and now there are three
I miss my dad's cooking,
and setting the table with my brother
arguing over who would put ice in the glasses
i miss my sister yelling at us for bickering
i miss my mom's laugh when she made fun of my dad
i miss my dad's voice and the smell of oldspice
i miss talking to him about the news and books before i went to sleep at night
everyone says "ooh its not that bad"
"he'll be back"
why cant i have that certanty
instead im left heating up leftovers from some restaurant we went to last week
i just ran out of my friends house
i went to get my bike and they invited me for dinner
the table was set just how we use to
they told me there was plenty for me too
but instead i ran out of the house mumbling something about how i had already ate
my friend told me he'd drive me home.. but i told him to eat with his family
he kept on saying "i dont want to eat with them"
and i remembered when i use to be like that
you never know what you have until half of them are gone
I feel like our family is growing apart
and im never home to watch it
my brother doesnt leave his room enough to care
my sister has her own life
my dad is saving lives in afganistan
and my mom.. my mom is crying over us.
i wish i could help more
i wish i could do more for her
even now im sitting in my room crying and typing when i could be out there spending time with her
but i cant let her see me cry
i cant let her worry about me
i have to be stronge for all of us even though im being eaten up inside
im sure she feels the same way
but i feel like my insides are rotting
I miss my dad
i miss my family
i miss my sister
just to hear them laugh once more all together again
And i'll be the next to go
to start my own life
then what?
I thought i was over all of this
it just keeps on haunting me though
I hate that feeling where it seems like you'll never feel the warmth of giggles again
when I cant think of anything that would make me laugh
and everything that makes me happy just makes me want to cry even more
i like to prentend that im strong.. but im not.
I wish i still had all those family traditions
this year has sucked
i remember when we would have dinners every night..
there use to be five of us and now there are three
I miss my dad's cooking,
and setting the table with my brother
arguing over who would put ice in the glasses
i miss my sister yelling at us for bickering
i miss my mom's laugh when she made fun of my dad
i miss my dad's voice and the smell of oldspice
i miss talking to him about the news and books before i went to sleep at night
everyone says "ooh its not that bad"
"he'll be back"
why cant i have that certanty
instead im left heating up leftovers from some restaurant we went to last week
i just ran out of my friends house
i went to get my bike and they invited me for dinner
the table was set just how we use to
they told me there was plenty for me too
but instead i ran out of the house mumbling something about how i had already ate
my friend told me he'd drive me home.. but i told him to eat with his family
he kept on saying "i dont want to eat with them"
and i remembered when i use to be like that
you never know what you have until half of them are gone
I feel like our family is growing apart
and im never home to watch it
my brother doesnt leave his room enough to care
my sister has her own life
my dad is saving lives in afganistan
and my mom.. my mom is crying over us.
i wish i could help more
i wish i could do more for her
even now im sitting in my room crying and typing when i could be out there spending time with her
but i cant let her see me cry
i cant let her worry about me
i have to be stronge for all of us even though im being eaten up inside
im sure she feels the same way
but i feel like my insides are rotting
I miss my dad
i miss my family
i miss my sister
just to hear them laugh once more all together again
And i'll be the next to go
to start my own life
then what?
I thought i was over all of this
it just keeps on haunting me though
I hate that feeling where it seems like you'll never feel the warmth of giggles again
when I cant think of anything that would make me laugh
and everything that makes me happy just makes me want to cry even more
i like to prentend that im strong.. but im not.