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everything is a mess right now. in one way i feel like i am finally getting my life into a good productive pattern, but at the same time i feel as if i have lost control of my future. so many things are uncertain right now; there seems no way to clear the fog. school is going so well and work is still work, but now all the sudden i have to deal with this. the timing is awful and the person is even worse. i don't know how i can do this with so many reasons screaming at me not to. but i know that i have to; i pretty much don't have a choice. whenever i'm doing well you always drag me back down. i wish i could make you vanish.