why?
i am completely fucking lost. i don't understand how everything can fall apart so fast. i feel so lied to. so betrayed. people make mistakes though, and i refuse to let you beat yourself up over it. basically shit happens, and sometimes certain mistakes are repeated. you don't have to lie to me about it though; i don't respect you any less for it. i sort of feel that if you didn't have to hide it, we wouldn't have the problem we do. can't things just go away? can't this just have been a bad dream? i don't want my mom to leave for this. i don't want our family to crumble in my hands. i'll stay home for a while if i have to. i'll do anything.