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I'm tired of this feeling, this over-whelming depression that builds heavy in my chest. But I know that theres a purpous for me out there somewhere. All I want out of life, is the right person for me, but it seems that I'm never going to find her. lately, my life has been nothing but problems, Drugs, Alcohol, Pointless sex. The life that everyone wants, isn't what its cut out to be. This life sucks, and is definately not for me. I've got 79 days until I'm 18... Maybe my real life will start then, because I swear to god, if my life doesn't shape up by then, I'm moving, to a place where noone knows me. To start a new life, to put all of this behind me. Everyone around me, shows their love for each other. But I have an empty feeling.. like I'm nothing but a hollow shell of what used to be something good, and pure. Now I'm dark, and deceptive. And I swear that -My- destiny is a very lonely one. Right now, I just don't know what to do anymore, usually I'm one to change my life for myself, and make a life for myself. Now I'm just drifting on the dark clouds that i call my life, just hanging on for the ride, clinging on for dear life. Every relationship I've had has ended in some kind of horrible nightmare, whether it be willing to sell my internal organs to go and see the one that I'm enfatuated with, the person I'm with leaves me in the cold, or the person that I love gets ripped out from my grasp. I just don't know what to do anymore, I'm losing site of life, I'm straying from my trail. I just wish that some how, some way, there would be a sign, just right out in site, telling me, "HER YOU FUCKING IDIOT. HER. SHES THE ONE."
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Kynetek
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