Long day..
Today was going fine until the afternoon creeped up and smacked me in the ass. I finally got my mom off to the side to talk to her. I told her I don't want to live here anymore not with my dad I want her to leave him get her education like she wanted until he screwed that up for her and I want it to just be me her and my brother..a step-dad I wouldnt mind. I got very upset and she said she understood and that it was breaking her heart hearing me say these things because she thinks its her fault, but it isn't and she knows I know that. My mom is like a bestfriend I love her with everything I am and I just want her to be happy and not held down by a horses ass like him. Mainly started because of the money issue..(always fucking causes damn problems)but its just he cant appreciate anything he's always mad and he turns everything negative..I told my mom I'm just tired..and I dont want to see her this way..not anymore..its breaking my heart..I don't know if she see's that..I really don't..but it is........Gatlin I'm talking to you now..I'm crying you'll ofcourse read..but..baby..so much I've wanted to say to you and I just cant find the words for it.
I want to run away with you I want you to hold me and sing me to sleep every night I want you to make it all better..I wanted to tell you that I would die if you werent in my life I would be alone and I wouldnt have someone like you that even wants to care if im alright..baby..I love you..I love you..I love you..save me please..just..take me away..