Even MORE controversy in my life!!!

[darkened_mishap]

Ok, so things are kinda good, I'm trying to recover from all my bad traits, but it's not going the greatest...So my main subject today is men...lol I kno I kno I go thru men like sox sometimes, but the new guy I like is really kewl and I've been getting to know him pretty well and he's so awesome, he's deep and sentimental, he's gone thru a lot in his life and he really knows what I'm going thru, unlike my last boyfriend, I don't feel weird around him, I'm not scared that I'm going to say/do something wrong, it's just so comfortable, I mean tonight, I went over to his house and we just laid on the bed talking about stuff, getting to know each other and cuddleing, but the thing about it is...he's older then me, buy quite a bit, now to me, age is just a number, I mean I could see like how they could have other things in mind, but he's not some horny sex god wanna be...he's human, he has faults and feelings, and he shows them, but not too much. We have stuff in common and that's great...I hate being this young sometimes with such and old soul..It's annoying because people jump to conclusions and sterotype people by age or looks or anything...and his age, that is going to be a big problem, not for me, but for being accepted into the family, or even my friends...My parents think he's like 20, and he looks really young, and he passes, but he told me tonight, and oh my, I never would have thought that I would fall for a guy over 10 years diffrence from me. He's only 31..I know I know, it sounds so horrible doesn't it? and he's so sweet he doesn't want to go behind my parents back or anything he wants, if we were to have a realtionship that it would be honest that we wouldn't have to hide and betray my parents, there have been enough betrails in both of our lives...
More on this later, I have to jet because my dad wont let me be on the comp for more then 10 mins because of my stupid grades...
Talk to me later Adrian, I really want ur advice on this and need someone besides B ok?
Love you all
Night
~Mica