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I feel kinda like crap. Can't say the 'S' word...**rolls eyes**
Anyway, I spent the whole frigging day with Bill. I loved it. Atleast until the subject I love to hate came up...my big mess up, mistake, whatever you want to call it. I prefer the good 'ol F*** Up. Anyway. From there it got bad, but I won't go into details.
I just feel so...I don't exactly know how I feel. I just know I am not happy with myself. I hate living with myself and knowing what I did. I absolutely loathe it. But what am I to do but sit and let time heal everything? That is always the cure...time. But who really has time? I don't know if I do.
I mean, though I know it may never happen, I do hope he can eventually forget. I don't believe he will completely forget, but that is the case with anyone, I think. He says he wants to forget..all he wants is that. To forget. God help him to. We need to get through this...I believe we can, I only hope we can together.
Anyway. I am going to go waste some time until 1 when I going to call him. And then I get to got to sleep. My former step sister's birthday party is tomorrow. Whoot! Food....yay
I hope I sleep
~Nyrie~
Anyway, I spent the whole frigging day with Bill. I loved it. Atleast until the subject I love to hate came up...my big mess up, mistake, whatever you want to call it. I prefer the good 'ol F*** Up. Anyway. From there it got bad, but I won't go into details.
I just feel so...I don't exactly know how I feel. I just know I am not happy with myself. I hate living with myself and knowing what I did. I absolutely loathe it. But what am I to do but sit and let time heal everything? That is always the cure...time. But who really has time? I don't know if I do.
I mean, though I know it may never happen, I do hope he can eventually forget. I don't believe he will completely forget, but that is the case with anyone, I think. He says he wants to forget..all he wants is that. To forget. God help him to. We need to get through this...I believe we can, I only hope we can together.
Anyway. I am going to go waste some time until 1 when I going to call him. And then I get to got to sleep. My former step sister's birthday party is tomorrow. Whoot! Food....yay
I hope I sleep
~Nyrie~