and its just my luck to end up getting stuck to everything you are.
im not a person who holds grudges.
im not exactly judgemental either.
generally speaking, i give people the benefit of the doubt.
i assume going into it, that they are generally a good and honest person.
usually, i find this to be rewarding because i dont judge them before i know them.
but sometimes, i get burned..
i give too many second chances, + i end up being taken advantage of.
maybe im too forgiving, or maybe im just blind, i dont know.
but whichever it is, there is no excuse for taking advantage of someone who cares about you.
someone you know has been there for you when you needed it most.
someone you know has been patient with you in your trying times.
someone you know has seen the worst of you.
someone you know has sacrificed something for you.
someone you know all this about, and still, you treated wrongly at one time or another.
someone who forgave you for doing so, maybe even more than once.
i dont see how someone can so openly take advantage of someone.
how can someone treat another person as if they are are expected to live at their disposal.
i wont sit here waiting. im not stupid, im not ignorant, + im not blind.
i know whats going on, + i know you dont mean to be such a horrible person.
but you are, and you need to hear that once in awhile.
so think about your actions, your decisions, their effects.
+ think about what you want in the long run, + how that may change.
+ i dont know, think about others + how they feel once in awhile.
maybe then your life will be easier to deal with
+ maybe then you'll be able to call yourself a good person + not be lying.
i believe that people can change, + that they do on a daily basis.
they change a little bit each day, progressing in one direction.
+ sometimes, they've changed into something that they dont like, or that others dont like.
+ thats when you need a big change quickly.
that when you need to introspect + re-examine your life + what went wrong.
so you can rectify your wrong-doings + make sure they dont happen again.
but it takes a big person to realize what they've done wrong.
+ an even bigger person to be willing to change, + willing to work for it.
so honestly, i dont expect a huge difference from you.
but i believe that it is possible, + i know that you can do it.
you can right what you've done.
but its going to take time + effort.
+ you havent been good at putting in the necessary effort in the past.
+ honestly, i think you're afraid.
i hope you do it for yourself though.
to prove to yourself that you can, + that you're a good person.
no matter what, i'm here to talk to or help you.
but know that this is what i think.
:-/
best _____ of the year:
- party: haha probably joes or mike's.
- show: scrubs!!
- new show: i dont know what new shows are. i watch dvds.
- Comeback show: um. you mean old show thats still on? fresh prince. duh.
- Reality Show: no.
- TV moment: i have no idea. no tv for me.
- cd: interventions & lullabies - the format; commit this to memory - motion city soundtrack
- song: sore thumb - the format
- remix: since you've been gone!!!! ♥ dee
- movie: Wedding Crashers, Waiting, + the 40 yr old virgin.
- video game: burnout.
- experience: JLR by far.
- concert: Coheed + Cambria.
- book: This Side of Paradise by F. Scott Fitzgerald.
- month: august.
- day: my favorite day this year.. that one's kind of private..
worst ____ of the year:
- party: jonny's.
- show: any reality tv show.
- new show: i dont know.
- Comeback show: i dont know.
Reality Show: all of them.
- TV moment: i dont care.
- cd: did madonna, britney spears or mariah carey make any?
- song: boulevard of broken dreams. wayyy overplayed.
- remix: all of them, except the one listed under best, bc i think its funny.
- movie: the aviator.
- video game: i dont know- i dont buy anything i dont like.
- experience: i could name a few..
- concert: i dont pay for things i know i wont like.
- book: not a book, but a series of articles by Sontag. i hate her.
- month: November.
- day: again- private.
hopes for 2006:
- predict something that you think will happen in 2006?: i will cry A LOT. (seniors.)
- what do you hope changes about your country?: what my generation's values are..
- what do you hope for yourself?: figure out whats wrong with me + fix it.
- what do you hope for your family?: my parents' happiness, + overall harmony between us.
during 2005:
1. where were you when it began?: frank stark's with the family.
2. did you stay up?: uh- yes.
3. what was your new year wish?: private..
4. have any crushes?: i dont have crushes.
5. care to mention names?: no.
6. new friends?: yes.
7. had to say goodbye?: yes.. seniors 05.
8. missed anyone?: jonny karp<3 + friends that graduated + went away.
9. win anything?: a few things.
10. best place you went to?: Marian Shrine in Stony Point
11. worst place you went to?: i dont know.. nothing stands out.
12. happiest moment?: when something i've been wanting since middle school became reality.
13. how was your birthday?: terrible at first, then i got to lock-in.. + it was a little better.
im not exactly judgemental either.
generally speaking, i give people the benefit of the doubt.
i assume going into it, that they are generally a good and honest person.
usually, i find this to be rewarding because i dont judge them before i know them.
but sometimes, i get burned..
i give too many second chances, + i end up being taken advantage of.
maybe im too forgiving, or maybe im just blind, i dont know.
but whichever it is, there is no excuse for taking advantage of someone who cares about you.
someone you know has been there for you when you needed it most.
someone you know has been patient with you in your trying times.
someone you know has seen the worst of you.
someone you know has sacrificed something for you.
someone you know all this about, and still, you treated wrongly at one time or another.
someone who forgave you for doing so, maybe even more than once.
i dont see how someone can so openly take advantage of someone.
how can someone treat another person as if they are are expected to live at their disposal.
i wont sit here waiting. im not stupid, im not ignorant, + im not blind.
i know whats going on, + i know you dont mean to be such a horrible person.
but you are, and you need to hear that once in awhile.
so think about your actions, your decisions, their effects.
+ think about what you want in the long run, + how that may change.
+ i dont know, think about others + how they feel once in awhile.
maybe then your life will be easier to deal with
+ maybe then you'll be able to call yourself a good person + not be lying.
i believe that people can change, + that they do on a daily basis.
they change a little bit each day, progressing in one direction.
+ sometimes, they've changed into something that they dont like, or that others dont like.
+ thats when you need a big change quickly.
that when you need to introspect + re-examine your life + what went wrong.
so you can rectify your wrong-doings + make sure they dont happen again.
but it takes a big person to realize what they've done wrong.
+ an even bigger person to be willing to change, + willing to work for it.
so honestly, i dont expect a huge difference from you.
but i believe that it is possible, + i know that you can do it.
you can right what you've done.
but its going to take time + effort.
+ you havent been good at putting in the necessary effort in the past.
+ honestly, i think you're afraid.
i hope you do it for yourself though.
to prove to yourself that you can, + that you're a good person.
no matter what, i'm here to talk to or help you.
but know that this is what i think.
:-/
best _____ of the year:
- party: haha probably joes or mike's.
- show: scrubs!!
- new show: i dont know what new shows are. i watch dvds.
- Comeback show: um. you mean old show thats still on? fresh prince. duh.
- Reality Show: no.
- TV moment: i have no idea. no tv for me.
- cd: interventions & lullabies - the format; commit this to memory - motion city soundtrack
- song: sore thumb - the format
- remix: since you've been gone!!!! ♥ dee
- movie: Wedding Crashers, Waiting, + the 40 yr old virgin.
- video game: burnout.
- experience: JLR by far.
- concert: Coheed + Cambria.
- book: This Side of Paradise by F. Scott Fitzgerald.
- month: august.
- day: my favorite day this year.. that one's kind of private..
worst ____ of the year:
- party: jonny's.
- show: any reality tv show.
- new show: i dont know.
- Comeback show: i dont know.
Reality Show: all of them.
- TV moment: i dont care.
- cd: did madonna, britney spears or mariah carey make any?
- song: boulevard of broken dreams. wayyy overplayed.
- remix: all of them, except the one listed under best, bc i think its funny.
- movie: the aviator.
- video game: i dont know- i dont buy anything i dont like.
- experience: i could name a few..
- concert: i dont pay for things i know i wont like.
- book: not a book, but a series of articles by Sontag. i hate her.
- month: November.
- day: again- private.
hopes for 2006:
- predict something that you think will happen in 2006?: i will cry A LOT. (seniors.)
- what do you hope changes about your country?: what my generation's values are..
- what do you hope for yourself?: figure out whats wrong with me + fix it.
- what do you hope for your family?: my parents' happiness, + overall harmony between us.
during 2005:
1. where were you when it began?: frank stark's with the family.
2. did you stay up?: uh- yes.
3. what was your new year wish?: private..
4. have any crushes?: i dont have crushes.
5. care to mention names?: no.
6. new friends?: yes.
7. had to say goodbye?: yes.. seniors 05.
8. missed anyone?: jonny karp<3 + friends that graduated + went away.
9. win anything?: a few things.
10. best place you went to?: Marian Shrine in Stony Point
11. worst place you went to?: i dont know.. nothing stands out.
12. happiest moment?: when something i've been wanting since middle school became reality.
13. how was your birthday?: terrible at first, then i got to lock-in.. + it was a little better.