Old Thoughts / Same Feelings / New Years
Firstly.. my most enduring memory of the night spend welcoming the new year in will be sitting in my car, cold and alone at 6:30am this morning, unable to sleep, staring through the cold, rain-covered windows out at the grey sky, singing quietly as Semisonic - "Closing Time" played loudly on the stereo, and crying softly.
Symbolism?
You bet your ass. But it's not like I care, these days. I'm beyond wondering over the merest chances and vagaraties of life now. I know what I know, I feel what I feel, I am what I am, and not much is going to change there. I refuse to change who I am simply because I am constantly harrassed or criticized about it - whether such criticism and harassment is warranted or not. It's the reason I have never dyed my hair, even if I have thought about it, it is the reason I will never lie down and take what's thrown at me without throwing it right back at the person giving it, preferably harder, and lower...
Secondly.. Happy New Year to everyone who reads this, no matter where you are. I think I've timed this post well enough that it'll be the New Year whenever you read this, unless of course you live in the godforsaken abyss of Alaska. In which case.. sucks to be you!
Finally, a parting thought for this first day of the year 2005...
it's very interesting what you can overhear when you wake up at precisely the right wrong moment..
Symbolism?
You bet your ass. But it's not like I care, these days. I'm beyond wondering over the merest chances and vagaraties of life now. I know what I know, I feel what I feel, I am what I am, and not much is going to change there. I refuse to change who I am simply because I am constantly harrassed or criticized about it - whether such criticism and harassment is warranted or not. It's the reason I have never dyed my hair, even if I have thought about it, it is the reason I will never lie down and take what's thrown at me without throwing it right back at the person giving it, preferably harder, and lower...
Secondly.. Happy New Year to everyone who reads this, no matter where you are. I think I've timed this post well enough that it'll be the New Year whenever you read this, unless of course you live in the godforsaken abyss of Alaska. In which case.. sucks to be you!
Finally, a parting thought for this first day of the year 2005...
it's very interesting what you can overhear when you wake up at precisely the right wrong moment..