yum tea.
It's too hot to drink right now. I just brunt my tongue on it a little bit. i hate sitting alone. it makes me feel vulnerable. I don't like that feeling. I just really don't like feelings. they need to no exist or something like that.
Ok scratch that last thing I was typing. I can't stop yawning. I'm also still having trouble sleeping. It's starting to get really aggravating. Like, tomorrow I don't have to be to work until 5, but I know that I won't be able to sleep past 8. and so I have to sit around being bored and thinking all damn day. I'm probably just going to come to campus before work and hang out. Though I know when I get off people are going to be hanging out and I won't know about it. I wish I would just stop worrying about it.
the dreams or nightmares, whichever they are, aren't getting any better or going away. I don't know what to do about them anymore. One of them has gone away, well for now at least. It's still going to come back whether it's the same person or not. I'm just not wanting it to happen for a long time. I hope we're back where we were soon. I miss not being able to talk t him. Of course I can't talk to him about things about him, but yeah. Though right now there's nothing i need tot talk about that involves him really.
i miss the relationship thought. I miss the really tight hugs, always having someone there to cuddle, someone to kiss, to say I love you and make me feel special and loved and wanted. im afraid I won't find that again. Not while I'm here anyways. All the people that are left are my friends and I don't want to date them. Seeing as I pretty much already have. i rall don't want to be single for a year or more. that's gonna suck.
Ok scratch that last thing I was typing. I can't stop yawning. I'm also still having trouble sleeping. It's starting to get really aggravating. Like, tomorrow I don't have to be to work until 5, but I know that I won't be able to sleep past 8. and so I have to sit around being bored and thinking all damn day. I'm probably just going to come to campus before work and hang out. Though I know when I get off people are going to be hanging out and I won't know about it. I wish I would just stop worrying about it.
the dreams or nightmares, whichever they are, aren't getting any better or going away. I don't know what to do about them anymore. One of them has gone away, well for now at least. It's still going to come back whether it's the same person or not. I'm just not wanting it to happen for a long time. I hope we're back where we were soon. I miss not being able to talk t him. Of course I can't talk to him about things about him, but yeah. Though right now there's nothing i need tot talk about that involves him really.
i miss the relationship thought. I miss the really tight hugs, always having someone there to cuddle, someone to kiss, to say I love you and make me feel special and loved and wanted. im afraid I won't find that again. Not while I'm here anyways. All the people that are left are my friends and I don't want to date them. Seeing as I pretty much already have. i rall don't want to be single for a year or more. that's gonna suck.