Where to start...
Well here I am, finally started a live journal at the behest of several friends. Why would I want to write about myself and the events that are going on in my life? Well why not? And as one of my friends pointed out.. this is a place to rant if you so desire, or muse, or dream .. or whatever...
I've been riding an emotional roller coaster lately, so much so that I'm kinda at a loss as to which way is up. We've had 2 deaths in the family in the last few months.. my uncle and my father in law. I miss them both terribly. My husband and I have been trying to conceive our third child for nearly a year now and while it seems that I may finally be pregnant, I'm apprehensive about testing as I really do not want to be disappointed again. There is an old legend that says in order for a child to be conceived an elder must die. Such is the circle of life and all that jazz but having people die still sucks. And I've seen too much death in my life... Who knows , maybe this will mean that I'll have twins.. egads what a scary thought! Guess we'll wait and see.
In the past few months I've seen some of my dear friends have their relationship ripped apart by circumstance, high stress and emotional reactions. It makes me sad. While I am glad that these friends have found love and happiness together with their respective partners, it saddens me that their friendships appears unable to stand the strain of one couple's circumstances. I'm not being evasive by not using names, those people involved know who they are but rather trying to be respectfully of their privacy. I've decided that in this dispute, I'm not choosing sides. Instead I'm trying to be a true friend and a good listener for all the parties concerned. Whether I might be able to assist in some form of mediation at some point remains unclear but I will continue to hope that all involved will realize how very precious a true friend is and that regardless of heated words or hurt feelings, nothing is so spans is so vast that a bridge cannot be built or repaired by those who are willing to try.
I've been riding an emotional roller coaster lately, so much so that I'm kinda at a loss as to which way is up. We've had 2 deaths in the family in the last few months.. my uncle and my father in law. I miss them both terribly. My husband and I have been trying to conceive our third child for nearly a year now and while it seems that I may finally be pregnant, I'm apprehensive about testing as I really do not want to be disappointed again. There is an old legend that says in order for a child to be conceived an elder must die. Such is the circle of life and all that jazz but having people die still sucks. And I've seen too much death in my life... Who knows , maybe this will mean that I'll have twins.. egads what a scary thought! Guess we'll wait and see.
In the past few months I've seen some of my dear friends have their relationship ripped apart by circumstance, high stress and emotional reactions. It makes me sad. While I am glad that these friends have found love and happiness together with their respective partners, it saddens me that their friendships appears unable to stand the strain of one couple's circumstances. I'm not being evasive by not using names, those people involved know who they are but rather trying to be respectfully of their privacy. I've decided that in this dispute, I'm not choosing sides. Instead I'm trying to be a true friend and a good listener for all the parties concerned. Whether I might be able to assist in some form of mediation at some point remains unclear but I will continue to hope that all involved will realize how very precious a true friend is and that regardless of heated words or hurt feelings, nothing is so spans is so vast that a bridge cannot be built or repaired by those who are willing to try.