Day 15
Right now my heart is still beating faster than normal. Where I was once able to read my b/f's entries on livejournal, I'm now only allowed to read two. Granted there were only maybe 5 total to begin with....oh so I see. I just checked....HE DELETED ME. I ADDED YOU BACK MICHAEL. I was able to read those entries up until roughly a week ago, and I added you back over a week ago.
And what's with the new livejournal?? I'm trying to be good here, I'm trying to stay calm, but only ill comes from A) deleting me AFTER I ADDED YOU BACK AFTER YOU ASKED ME TOO B) Creating a NEW livejournal, one which I obviously cannot read.
What the hell is going on? Things were so good, I thought they were going so good. I was doing so much better and this is how I get treated?
Please GOD, let there be a rational explanation for this and show me I'm over reacting.
Such as life, take whats in your heart, put it online for someone else to read and BAM get slapped in the face soon thereafter. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
I will NOT go back to what I was. I WONT I WONT I WONT.
*shutting up now*
*goes to scream into pillows*
And what's with the new livejournal?? I'm trying to be good here, I'm trying to stay calm, but only ill comes from A) deleting me AFTER I ADDED YOU BACK AFTER YOU ASKED ME TOO B) Creating a NEW livejournal, one which I obviously cannot read.
What the hell is going on? Things were so good, I thought they were going so good. I was doing so much better and this is how I get treated?
Please GOD, let there be a rational explanation for this and show me I'm over reacting.
Such as life, take whats in your heart, put it online for someone else to read and BAM get slapped in the face soon thereafter. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
I will NOT go back to what I was. I WONT I WONT I WONT.
*shutting up now*
*goes to scream into pillows*