life as i see it right now

[darkelfdelila]

life to me at this moment is nothing more than a road filled with obsticles. i dont know where the finish line is, i cant see it. and i dont know what the prize is. but i know i want that prize. it has to be a good one if the road is this jumbled. its not as difficult as other peoples, and thats why im so disapointed. i cant ever finish the easy road. what will i do when my road gets slippery. fall on my face probably. life to me is fun, thats why i keep living it. if it got to where i didnt the same thing everyday(like my job) i would give up, faster than i have been. i have givin up on my life in my own little way. like what i do with school. i keep going with it because if i dont, ill have a bunch of pedestriens yelling at me to stay in my own lane. i do it mostly to keep others happy. i know if i quit i will be mad at myself but that wont be till later on my road when i will want to make a U turn and go back. but i wont be able to. so i guess i do it a little for my self. i have made a lot of pit stops along the way. but when you make a pit stop it can be more fun than driving. im tired of driving, can i be the passenger now.

bye bye all i love you all, even if you think i dont. i have to stleast a little. i love all my ppl in one way or another
Babs