my mood of hell and annoyance

[darkelfdelila]

well i hope all of you have had a wonderful day. cause mine was completly fucked. nothing bad happened. except that i wanted to go with trish to see her sisters. i totally forgot about it. if i knew i wouldnt have gone to brittni's moms. i wanted to see them. i miss them. i miss trishia too. alot. maybe thats why im in this mood. i dont know what kind of mood it is. but i dont like it. maybe it has to do with other things, i have no idea. but i want it gone. i know it will be gone by the morning,well i hope it will. the only thing that could change my mood is sleep,somthing that would make me smile inside and out,or ummmm. thats it, the one i dont want to do yet, and the other has to come from a person. and i dont have a person to make me feel smilie. so im kinda screwed. but ill get over it. i can make myself im good at it.dont even know if a person could make me feel better. many have tried, and they have yet to succeed. so whats the point of expecting to find happiness. im tired of looking, cant i just let it find me. my trying doesnt seem to be doing any good. it never has. just got me in more trouble. but i think all of this is just the mood talking. but the worse comes out when i have these moods. most of you know i get them offten. thats why im so hard to put up with. i dont know how any of you can love me as much as you do.

what a great song. ahh the irony. dont ya just love it. i find it funny
"i had tried to keep her from what she was about to see, why should she believe me when i told her it wasnt me"
bye bye all
Babs