guess im back where i started so i guess it doesnt make much of a difference
well it shouldnt make a difference but i know it will. theres this guy i like now, and if a friend has a problem with it im not going to date him. i dont even know if he wants to date me cause he hasnt asked me out. if he doesnt then agian i will be back where i started. but if he does, and the friend does have a problem with it, i dont know, i guess it just wont happen then.
i didnt do my homw work agian this weekend. i hate myself. i want to succeed but im falling behind agian. i dont know what to do. my brain isnt strong enough to tell my heart it should suck it up and not let things get in the way. im not doing bad ith work just school. i hate it. i also did some thing i havent in a long time. i hate myself like i said before. i dont even know why i did it. i know what ever it was, wasnt a good reason. nothing is really. i shouldnt have done it. i wish i could take it back. i was doing so good. last time was october. and now look what ive done. my knucles hurt too but they arent as bad as dani's. i guess since i didnt do a good enough job with the knucles, so i had to do more drastic to get the effect i wanted at the time. and i do mean at the time cause now i want to hurt myself for doing what i did. but thats just kinda pointless considering the reason i want to hurt me. its for hurting myself. so that wouldnt make much sence would it. well time for my poem i guess. lets see how good i can do this time.
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ignorence is bliss some people say
other wise its your heart that has to pay
the time will come when your world crashes
and maybe your arm will be full of scratches
i know it seems to take away all of the shames
but time will be the answer to all of lifes games
my time has already came and passed
to find something that just might last
i have nobody to blame but myself
i guess all i can do is sit on my shelf
i want to find something that is true and pure
if i will find something of that sort i am not sure
why do these feelings now haunt me
before i was ok i acctualy felt free
i feel trapped inside this cage i call my heart
now it seems my emotions start to fall apart
it appears that my life likes to go astray
so to myself i repeat the words"it will be ok"
this is just your life,but you dont get what you want
get through all the strife,and you'll be in the front
when the day will come,that your world will realign
wont know where it came from,but it will all be fine
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i wanted to make it longer but i have to do home work now. i love and miss you all. i hope im not so stupid in the next entry. like all the caring stuff i did in this one. i like caring but not when it makes me feel sick inside, and not be able to eat. oh well ill get used to it.
i didnt do my homw work agian this weekend. i hate myself. i want to succeed but im falling behind agian. i dont know what to do. my brain isnt strong enough to tell my heart it should suck it up and not let things get in the way. im not doing bad ith work just school. i hate it. i also did some thing i havent in a long time. i hate myself like i said before. i dont even know why i did it. i know what ever it was, wasnt a good reason. nothing is really. i shouldnt have done it. i wish i could take it back. i was doing so good. last time was october. and now look what ive done. my knucles hurt too but they arent as bad as dani's. i guess since i didnt do a good enough job with the knucles, so i had to do more drastic to get the effect i wanted at the time. and i do mean at the time cause now i want to hurt myself for doing what i did. but thats just kinda pointless considering the reason i want to hurt me. its for hurting myself. so that wouldnt make much sence would it. well time for my poem i guess. lets see how good i can do this time.
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ignorence is bliss some people say
other wise its your heart that has to pay
the time will come when your world crashes
and maybe your arm will be full of scratches
i know it seems to take away all of the shames
but time will be the answer to all of lifes games
my time has already came and passed
to find something that just might last
i have nobody to blame but myself
i guess all i can do is sit on my shelf
i want to find something that is true and pure
if i will find something of that sort i am not sure
why do these feelings now haunt me
before i was ok i acctualy felt free
i feel trapped inside this cage i call my heart
now it seems my emotions start to fall apart
it appears that my life likes to go astray
so to myself i repeat the words"it will be ok"
this is just your life,but you dont get what you want
get through all the strife,and you'll be in the front
when the day will come,that your world will realign
wont know where it came from,but it will all be fine
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i wanted to make it longer but i have to do home work now. i love and miss you all. i hope im not so stupid in the next entry. like all the caring stuff i did in this one. i like caring but not when it makes me feel sick inside, and not be able to eat. oh well ill get used to it.