im just me and is sucks

[darkelfdelila]

i dont know what to wright so ill just tell you about me day and maybe it will turn into something more. i stayed up till 5 this morning talking to tommy, then i got up at 3:30 and got ready and went to work. i like working there i guess. i get plenty of hours and they dont seem to hate me. and if i save up money ill get to move out. i told manda and billy that i would move in with them, but i also told brittni i would move in with her, her mom , and her sis. i dont know who i should move in with or who i want to move in with. i mean i love brittni and her mom and sister, but i love my sister too. and i want to live with tommy, but they all said tommy can live where ever i live also. im so confused. but if we all move in with her mom that would be a lot of ppl in one apartment. i dont know. i just feel like crying. i had a very tiring day at work. and i usually come home to my baby but he wasnt here this time and i had nothing to look forward to coming home to. i miss him so much. i started wrighting something at work but never finished it here ill put it in here and maybe ill finish it now
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swirling head
no end in sight
they've clipped my wings
i cannot take flight

once i was free
now i sit and weep
thoughts of recent past
circle through my mind
~this is where i stopped~

with no one to hold me
i wipe away my own tears
thoughts pounding in my head
they fade away, im left alone
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i could have written more but i just dont feel like it. i dont feel like much of anything. i just want to go to sleep. but i wont. cause im talking to my baby now. i wish i could hug him. but i cant.