bad day
i remember seeing that car coming towards me
and not being able to do anything
knowing i couldn't get out of the way
moments like that in life
not having any control
not being able to stop bad things
even when you see them coming
those are the worst moments
"what does your mom think of your snakebites?"
hmm i wonder what she would think if she was still alive
not only about that but just the person i've become
when i think about the disappointment i would be if she could see me
in 4 short years i became this horrible form of myself
this druggie, this slacker in school, just my life in general
my character is not anything that it used to be
i need to find a way to fix all this
i lost my conscience
i lost my angel
i figured out why i couldn't feel stress for months
and it was cuz at the end of the day i had everything i needed
god how homo ugh
love is a fictional emotion brought on by pheromones and a fear of abandonement.
my day has been really good
i should be happy
but inside me i'm not
and idk when i will be
the opposite of love isn't hate
it's indifference
And for every time you fed me the line,
“you mean so much to me...”. I'm without you.