every feeling that i get
standing alone
waiting in the wings
everything goes dark
before it goes numb
you never saw me
illusions, delusions
i am n o t h i n g here
this is not what i want
this was never what i wanted
i'm screaming out loud - i'm broken and i'm proud
for a moment, i can feel
i stand on my own, and
i walk on my feet and
i am a girl
(just a girl)
for a little while
i hate it, because
i know it will fade
bright light swirling down the drain
darkness swallows up all i am
chaos is come again
there is nothing left of me
you have taken everything
left behind only falsities
lies
misguided dreams
nothing is real
and i can't believe
anymore
i have never wanted to hate anyone
as much as i yearn to hate you
and yet yearning is all i feel
the rest is
nothing
~ÐarkÇhylde