adhere this to my heart
there is nothing more precious than
baby kisses through sleepy giggles
big smiles on little faces and bright blue eyes
learning your abc's and 1-2-3's
singing along to blue's clues and saying hello to steve
he s m i l e d at me
he smiled at me and in his happiest, most cheerful voice, cried, 'bye!' and waved in the way that only little boys can wave.
And then they drove away...
and i am not an element in any of this
and i removed myself from it
but i didn't do it on purpose.
so this is what a broken heart feels like...
nothing could ever hurt as much
as looking in my son's eyes
and realizing that i
am not who he calls
'mother'
anymore.
- DarkChylde