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hey,
well today was interesting in more then one way. i hatn been to school in a while...(like 4 days, lol) and it was funny to see how much i had missed...not only class work but with my friends and surroundings too. there is this big whole mess with the chick named Casity and her ex bf mike...he might have cheated on her and its this big mess, but i say that she should just say "skrew him!" and move on...cut she is wa better then him and he's just some sex drivin jr. and he cheated on her (maybe) with another frosh thats in my LA class....weird. so a im stuck in that mess some how. Then there is that andrea landed hersle fiwth 3 detentions and office refurals for ditching. omg its scary. but ya i have to make this short. i had an odd talk with my mom today about class, and even tho the new year hasnt started she said it wouldbe best to start my goals early to make them a habbit...so i did...i toldher the truth about my grades...she took it rather well. like about how i used to lie abut homeowkr so i could talk to holden on the phone since it was the only contact i could make with him. it felt good to talk to her... but im scared to tell her baout the faking sig...for my grade busters...remember? but ya...im glad i had that talk with her. and i guess when the new year comes ill have to spill the other stuff...but right now im not ready. i wanna have a good christmas before i get beaten around the head again. and my mom said that being grounded isnt to try and teach me a lesson...its to punish me for what i did wrong. and maybe my being punished for what i did i can change my habbits and not do it again. so ik im gonna be grounded for about 3 weeks for grades, (till grade busters come) and then about andother 2 weeks for lieing, and then about anorhte month for faking her sig (which i might add ill never do it again!)sheesh! i can offically say i ahve learned my lesson...there is good reason for doing the things i need to do. like i have already messed up my whole highschool GPA. i cant get a 4.0 and im lucky if i can pull off a 3.4 if i get all a's from now on. but i was thinking about taking honor's jr and sr year instead of taking a half day all then time...along with some summer classes. i wanna get a good education so i can move on with my life and not be stuck in this stupid hormonal "im sooo depressed save me! my life is sooo bad!" phase, that everyone seems to be going through. well i dont like it. it gets me nothing but being depressed and feeling selfish. and it also got me really jealous in my relationship with holden. that i can say caused ALOT of issues. so partly thx to matt, im getting my self out of this imature state of mind (slowly but surly) and trying to become a bigger and better person. and by doing well in school i get to keep and gain privlidges. i get to beable to drive (which is a privolage, sp) and i get to see matt alot moreand have a cell phone and hang out with friends, to have freedom to do as i please (to a sertain extent). i ahve relized that when one is mature and does there responcibilies they get more things and become a better person as a whole and they also get where they want in life. u become responicble and trust worthy and not a lazy selfish prick when you do as ur told and make sure u do ur responcibilies...because it doesnt get easier. as we get older, we r expected to be able to handle more and more responcibilities...but from what i have seen from fellow classmates and friends...we cannot seem to even take comtrole of the responcibilites we have and set some morals to follow. and if ur parents dont make u have any, then SHAME on them. because ur gonna ahve truble in life no matter what if u dont have any responcibilites. wow...i feel so stupid that i just said all of this. HAHA its not like anyone but matt reads this anyways. so ya...HI MATT!!!!! how was ur day? my day was good. i DO have a final tomorrow tho in guitar...im not too worries tho. oooooo, i smelll popcorn that my mom and grandma are eating...srry i didnt finish my lj in time, and im srry i didnt respond to ur IM. i have it on hide windows so i dont see or hear when some one wrote to me. lol heehee. well im outie, off to bed cuz my brain is mush from studying...wish me luck on tomorrow's guitar final and french oral final!!!! I LOVE YOU MATT!!!!!!! *KISSES* *HUGS*
lots of love always and forever!
tori
well today was interesting in more then one way. i hatn been to school in a while...(like 4 days, lol) and it was funny to see how much i had missed...not only class work but with my friends and surroundings too. there is this big whole mess with the chick named Casity and her ex bf mike...he might have cheated on her and its this big mess, but i say that she should just say "skrew him!" and move on...cut she is wa better then him and he's just some sex drivin jr. and he cheated on her (maybe) with another frosh thats in my LA class....weird. so a im stuck in that mess some how. Then there is that andrea landed hersle fiwth 3 detentions and office refurals for ditching. omg its scary. but ya i have to make this short. i had an odd talk with my mom today about class, and even tho the new year hasnt started she said it wouldbe best to start my goals early to make them a habbit...so i did...i toldher the truth about my grades...she took it rather well. like about how i used to lie abut homeowkr so i could talk to holden on the phone since it was the only contact i could make with him. it felt good to talk to her... but im scared to tell her baout the faking sig...for my grade busters...remember? but ya...im glad i had that talk with her. and i guess when the new year comes ill have to spill the other stuff...but right now im not ready. i wanna have a good christmas before i get beaten around the head again. and my mom said that being grounded isnt to try and teach me a lesson...its to punish me for what i did wrong. and maybe my being punished for what i did i can change my habbits and not do it again. so ik im gonna be grounded for about 3 weeks for grades, (till grade busters come) and then about andother 2 weeks for lieing, and then about anorhte month for faking her sig (which i might add ill never do it again!)sheesh! i can offically say i ahve learned my lesson...there is good reason for doing the things i need to do. like i have already messed up my whole highschool GPA. i cant get a 4.0 and im lucky if i can pull off a 3.4 if i get all a's from now on. but i was thinking about taking honor's jr and sr year instead of taking a half day all then time...along with some summer classes. i wanna get a good education so i can move on with my life and not be stuck in this stupid hormonal "im sooo depressed save me! my life is sooo bad!" phase, that everyone seems to be going through. well i dont like it. it gets me nothing but being depressed and feeling selfish. and it also got me really jealous in my relationship with holden. that i can say caused ALOT of issues. so partly thx to matt, im getting my self out of this imature state of mind (slowly but surly) and trying to become a bigger and better person. and by doing well in school i get to keep and gain privlidges. i get to beable to drive (which is a privolage, sp) and i get to see matt alot moreand have a cell phone and hang out with friends, to have freedom to do as i please (to a sertain extent). i ahve relized that when one is mature and does there responcibilies they get more things and become a better person as a whole and they also get where they want in life. u become responicble and trust worthy and not a lazy selfish prick when you do as ur told and make sure u do ur responcibilies...because it doesnt get easier. as we get older, we r expected to be able to handle more and more responcibilities...but from what i have seen from fellow classmates and friends...we cannot seem to even take comtrole of the responcibilites we have and set some morals to follow. and if ur parents dont make u have any, then SHAME on them. because ur gonna ahve truble in life no matter what if u dont have any responcibilites. wow...i feel so stupid that i just said all of this. HAHA its not like anyone but matt reads this anyways. so ya...HI MATT!!!!! how was ur day? my day was good. i DO have a final tomorrow tho in guitar...im not too worries tho. oooooo, i smelll popcorn that my mom and grandma are eating...srry i didnt finish my lj in time, and im srry i didnt respond to ur IM. i have it on hide windows so i dont see or hear when some one wrote to me. lol heehee. well im outie, off to bed cuz my brain is mush from studying...wish me luck on tomorrow's guitar final and french oral final!!!! I LOVE YOU MATT!!!!!!! *KISSES* *HUGS*
lots of love always and forever!
tori